On a lot of things. :)

Some things here, I’ve already said on my previous post but this one’s from my Multiply blog I just posted today. Might as well post it here. BTW, I mentioned below that I want to change my layout, but I dunno. The blog part of the site has small width, which makes it hard for people to read. Whaddyathink?

ON BEING A BUM:
I need to stop being a bum in front of the pc all the time. I’m hating it already. Doing the same things all over again. Though I’m having fun with Photoshop, it’s not all I do. I turn to MySpace, Facebook and Friendster all the time. Especially Facebook and MySpace! BOO! It’s so damn addicting! And this blog, I get lazy updating it. I feel like I wanna change the layout again. I have one ready, already coded and all that, but I’m just too lazy.

ON GOING OUT:
Now I need to go out. I wanna go out with my gerlssss. Deym I need to talk to them! As in NEED. Lots of things I wanna tell them. o_o And I miss my high school friends. If one of you are reading thisssss! OMGZ! Let’s go out! I’m missing them badlyyyyy. Supasupasupafriends, haven’t hung out with y’all for quite some time now. Makes me sad.

ON DVDS:
I need to buy DVDs, the series of Gossip Girl and the O.C. Koreanovelas too! Like Hana Kimi, and other good stuff. You know other Koreanovelas that you can call ‘good stuff’ you can recommend me?

ON BOOKS:
I also need to buy the books I’ve been wanting to read for the whole past year. Like the last Harry Potter book. I’m a loser for not having one yet. The Twilight series! Migadddd, I’ve watched the trailer and it’s so effin’ awesome. 12/12, Twilighters! And this year’s also the release of the last book in the series. Other good books to recommend, people?

ON PROJECTS:
And I also need to finish the website I’ve been doing for the past weeks. BAH. I dunno, it’s just that whenever I think, I get headaches. LOL. I like thinking though.

ON THINGS:
AND.. I like preoccupying myself with thingssss to do.

ON TIME:
Man, time is running out. School’s almost near, atleast for me. Cos yknow how time flies by real fast? Yeah. Yeaa. Boohoo.

ON ACDC:
Lately, we[yeah, Cerisse included hahaha] have been obsessing with ACDC[Adam/Chu Dance Crew]. And their shirt’s on sale now!!! Mr. Chu made it available werrldwide! Butttt, it’s worth effin’ $21.70, shipping included! Whathebuckkk! I don’t have that kind of money. I even told my friend from Cali to buy me an ACDC shirt, his gift for my birthday! He said, “haha maybe”. I was kidding though. But I was kidding! I just hope he’s not reading this. LOL. Yeah right, like the ACDC shirts are selling like hotcakes. LOL. Last time I checked, there are only two pieces left. I just hope they print more! So by that time, I already have money to buy it cos I just spent my money on online shopping in Multiply! LOL. The ACDC shirts are for charity anyways! But Cerisse messaged Mr. Chu if we can print ACDC shirts here in the Phils., we made our own designs. But he didn’t reply, he just read it. Booooo. Maybe it’s bcos they made it available worldwide and he of course, assumed that the info already spread on us, so no need to reply. Soo even if we’ll have our own ACDC shirts printed… STILL! I want their ACDC sherrrt! FOREALLLZ! I wanna be part of the crew. Hahaha! That’s what Adam Sevani said on his bulletin on MySpace! “Be part of the crew.” That’s why I’m loving MySpace. You get to talk to them! Like Cerisse, he got to talk with Harry Shum, Jr.(Cable on Step Up 2)! HAHAHAHA! Anyways, nuff with the ACDC talk. My brother told me I’m obsessed wit dem already. And so as my friend from Cali. So I guess, I am obsessed with them! Haha.

ON YOUTUBE:
Does anyone of you know Nigahiga of YouTube? HAHAHA! His vids are sooo funny! The result of boredom I guess. But heck, he’s got like a million views for every video he have on his channel! He’s got like 271,450 subscribers! Include me on that. Haha. PLUS! He’s cute btw! :p Hahaha. Youtube crush, LOLZ! I’ve also subscribed on Jon M. Chu’s YTube channel and as well as the Miley&Mandy Show. And I’m wonderin’, what’s up with singing and ukeleles in the U.S.? I dunno, it’s like very popular. I love this one though, Windward Skies cover. Thanks to my friend for showing that to me. And I saw this very kawaii video too called Animal Idol. Yeah, an American Idol for animals. Lol. So maybe you figured out what I do whenever I’m online. I just don’t get how I can spend my whole day just doing all these. Sux000.

ON MUSIC:
I just realized my taste for music has uhmm, how do you put it, broaden? I dunno, I just like listening to country songs lately. Thanks to MySpaceeeee! I just realized how I love praise songs too. Hillsong United will be having a concert here on the 26th! A day just before my berrrrthdayyym. I would love to see them live. And oh, I love hearing old school songs lately! It lights me up, brings a smile to my face. Imma download Backstreet Boys songs. What other good old songs are there? Make me remember. And I had my seat reserved on Marie Digby’s online concert on the 19th, 6am, our time. That’s veryyy early so I have to like get up at around 5am. I bet there’ll be a massive site traffic. I just hope my PC won’t crash. I want to buy her album! As well as Taylor Swift’s album. I heard her songs on MS and I loved it. Anywaysss…

ON AGE:
I feel like I’m 17 already. HAHA. ) I still have 19 days left to enjoy my sweeeettt 16. Was it sweet? Ionnooo. LOL.

ON AMERICAN IDOL:
Top 4 finalists are the 2 Davids, Syesha and Jason Castro. After their performance? I bet Jason Castro will go. So top 3 are the 2 Davids and Syesha. My top 2? The 2 Davids. David Archuleta and David Cook. Whoever wins, it’s okay. They’re both good.

ON REALITY:
Reality slapped me once again on my face! LIKE IT ALWAYS DOES! ) After I read Anna’s S-S.org blog! Haha. Ooh, Imma post this on my blogspot too. I need to like, update that from my random blahs.

ON RENZ:
I’m sorry I wasn’t able to give to you your vectorrrr! Haha. Sorry talagaaaa! But you can wait more right? Hehe. Thanks Renzzyyy!

Can I chill for a minute?

March 14, last year high school pa lang ako. Finals namin. Ayon sa aking 2007 planner.

March 15, birthday na pala ni Val ngayon, HAPPY BIRTHDAY VAL! Finals pa rin namin.

Fast forward to today..
College ako. Hindi pa namin finals, hindi pa rin magtatapos ang school para sa ‘min. Madaming gagawin. Seryoso, sobrang busy these past few days. Actually weeks ago pa sobrang dami nang gagawin. Ngayon ko lang na-realize. Tipong ayoko nang humarap sa computer kasi hindi ko na magagawa yung mga iba kong gustong gawin, like movie marathons, TV watching, kulitan with my family, and stuff like that. Kapag nasa harapan kasi ako ng PC, nagiging anti-social ako. Pag may ginagawa ako dito, super focused talaga. Kaya nasisira mata ko e. Haha. At hindi na ako makatayo sa kinauupuan ko. Swear, ganun. Pero hindi pwedeng hindi akong humarap sa PC. Dahil MMA ang kurso ko at forever computer-related ito. Kelangan ko ring i-check araw-araw ang mail ko, ang online shop namin, ang multiply ko(dahil napag-iiwanan na ako, marami pa rin akong hindi nauupload), ang friendster ko(dahil ayoko naman na late reply sa comments), at ang blog ko.

Buti Friday ngayon, nakanood ako ng TV. Napanood ko ang ending ng Marimar. Grabe yun oh, pinagkagastusan talaga. Ang pretty talaga ni Marian Rivera. Haha. Anywayyyy, nagpunta ako dito sa PC para i-edit yung remaining pics nung batchmate ko dati na debut sa 28th. Para wala nang dagdag pproblemahin. Ma-stress pa ako e. LOLz. Pero hindi ko pa rin siya ginagawa. Uh-oh. Dapat kasi natutulog na rin ako ngayon. Kasi maaga pa ako bukas dahil may practice kami for our P.E. Dance on Monday na Tango. And magppractice na rin kami for our Finals which is HIPHOP! Ohyea! I so missed dancing this kaya sobrang natuwa ako nung nalaman kong yan ang finals namin! Hehe. Tapos after the practice, we’re gonna continue the shoot for Jamila’s debut. This time, video naman. For the last few weeks kasi, puro photoshoots. So video na gagawin namin ngayon. Then yung classmate namin nung high school said na baka may celebration yung kaklase namin ng birthday niya. Di pa namin alam kung meron.

Then on Sunday, my barkada and I will have another bonding moment at TriNoma. We’re gonna watch Step up 2, lunch then ayun. We planned on having this every month just to keep in touch. But I said hanggang 4pm lang siguro kasi Palm Sunday at syempre magsisimba kami dba.

Aside from that, meron pang PHILOMA(Philosophy of Man) project na is-shoot, FILIP13(Retorika) song adaption(lol, we chose With You by Chris Brown, my blockmate already made the lyrics), Business Math quizzes to worry about, World Literature classes(pinoproblema namin ang mga stories at poems, oo. haha), COMSK2x(Technical Literature) multimedia resume and project proposal, and uh.. yeah. I think that’s pretty much it. It’s a lot, I tell you. Plus the Course Approval thingy pa pala! Di pa approved yung enlisted subjects ko kahit na napasa ko na yung requirements sa academic adviser ko. Oh well. Tapos ano pa ba.. basta, yan. Hectic. So, sorry if hindi ako nakakadalaw sa mga blogs niyo. Malapit na rin ang end ng classes(yeah like April 19) so busy talaga. Pero I’m not stressing YET. I hope I won’t! Oh well.

I guess all of us are busy. Some update lang. Naaliw ako sa journal na ginawa namin for Filipino for almost a week, everyday! Ayos din pala ang may entry araw-araw. Pero siguro for myself lang? Haha. Wala lang, baka ma-trip-an ko sometime. Good thing there’s the Holy Week break! almost 4 days of break. Pero marami pa rin akong gagawin kahit break. Like go to church, celebrate the Holy week and academic stuff. Yeah.

good luck sa ‘ting lahat. random stuff lang. thanks for those who dropped by!

Take time to realize, it’s not gonna be that simple.

Srsly, tinatamad ako magblog these days ’cause I’m busy you know. YAK HAHA. JOKE! ) I opt to be a busy-busyhan person these days. I really feel accomplished when I do a lot of things and to not think things and eventually end up overthinking it. But srsly, tinatamad ako magblog. Siguro dahil na rin sa nabadtrip ako sa pagcode sa layout ko na supposedly for the Heart’s day. I’m still thinking of putting it up though even if Heart’s day is way over.

Anyway, my day was pretty good at first but as time went, shet na-badtrip ako. LOL. Nakakapagod mag-antay sa labas ng school sa isang bus papuntang rally sa Makati na hindi naman darating. LOL. Naiwan kami ng bus e, sayang. Pagkalabas namin, nakita namin yung bus ng school nasa kabilang side na sa may DLSU Main. SHET talaga. Sayang yung blue form(for approved absences), lol. But there will still be a next time, dba? Haha, maybe. Kuya Kim(Rupert, lol, that’s what we call him cause he really look like Kuya Kim haha) said na sobrang saya daw. Dala lang niya dslr niya eh, fudge, sayang wala kami dun para picture-an niya. LOL. But don’t get me wrong, I want to go there not because of “fun”; “experience”; or just the simple petty reason of not getting in class. I want to go there to fight for the truth. Although there’s something in me that says there will be no hope and it’s really impossible for GMA to step down because I feel that she really won’t, I still want to go. If ever, it will somehow make a change, I will be proud to say I was one of the people who stood up to start the change we want to see. Anyway, enough of that. It just ruined my day big time ’cause it was really hot outside and we were just standing and talking there. Nawalan tuloy kami ng gana ni CJ. Kevin and Pem wanted to go to cut classes. And Mikee, well I don’t know why he wanted to go. Haha. I swear, nakakapagod. Badtrip talaga.

I said to Kevin and CJ, “Ne-yo na bukas. Parang hindi na ko na-eexcite. Nawala tuloy excitement ko.” Fudge. Oh well.

Today wasn’t my favorite day at all.

But then at the end of the day, it went back to being normal. Normal means a-okay day for me. Maybe it was because of seeing David Archuleta’s pic when Yana’s friend from the other block was surfing over Yahoo! for American Idol at Plaza V. LOL. If you’re watching AI and knows David Archuleta, but I’m pretty sure if you do watch AI you surely know him, you will so agree with me. Haha. Agree with what? That David Archuleta is LOVEEE. Addiction, LOL. Hahaaaayyy Okay enoughhh. Haha.

Anyway I have a feeling that March will be a good month for me. And I hope it will be! Things are going so well. We opened an online shop in Multiply(which by the way you should visit! http://umixed.multiply.com, thanks! advertise LOL!), I have more freelance works coming in.. which means more moolah! I have to save up for this year you know. Anything can happen like concerts and more concerts that I have to watch! And I still want to save up for my DSLR. However, I also have reasons to hate March. March means more school work, more deadlines, and… a lot more work. LOL. Only one month to go before school ends! Time is fast, have to be productive.

As much as I want to go to school, I also want the summer break. I can’t wait for it. Although one month lang, it’s okay. Have to do something to make that one month break worthwhile right? And I have a lot already planned out. Sana masunod siya! XD

Someone PMed me in YM and told me to look for a boylet for her. HAHAHA. Then she typed her number and said, “CP no ko bigay mo sakanila!!!” SHET. Haha. Is she that desperate? She then said, “ayaw ko mag NBSB kpag mag 18 na ako!” ) ROFL. Her debut is like 6 months away! She thinks she’s being lonely. Well, being NBSB isn’t so bad. Being single is fun and might as well make the most out of it. One shouldn’t rush on being in a relationship just for the sake of being in one. For me, being single and NBSB is fun. I will gladly wait. Wala pa akong nakikita e. O baka ayoko lang talaga. I shall stick to my New Year’s Resolution: no time for love. ASA MEHN. Hahaha. But srsly, hanggang like-like lang. Unless I find someone like David Archuleta, maybe that would make me change my mind. HAHA. )

Too many topics in one blog post eh? Who cares, it’s my blog. I love to blab. And I said I was lazy. GREAT. ) Anyway, until next time. (TV Show? Haha)

I need a love generation.

LOL, the title is totally irrelevant to my blog post. But anyway…

MIDTERMS ARE ALREADEH FINISHEDDD! Ohyea. It went well I guess except for my Theology subject which is RECONSE(Religion and Contemporary Search for Self). It was sooo essay. We didn’t know that that’s how she gives exams. She said our exam is already easy compared to our finals(uh-oh). But overall, I think it went pretty well. I hope I won’t fail! =o Oh there’s still one midterm left, my PE which is dance. We weren’t able to finish our Cha-Cha-Cha routine yet and we don’t know when our midterms will be. It was supposed to be on our make-up class last Wednesday but my prof texted one of my blockmates and said she can’t come. Oh well. There will be no classes on Monday and our PE class is during Mondays so we just have to wait for the announcement.

Kanina, there was a noise barrage at Taft. I was there! Three colleges were there for the “Busina para sa Katotohanan”: DLSU, CSB and St. Scholastica’s College. It was an experience! First time! Kevin and I waited until 5:30 and went to Plaza Villarosa in CSB ’cause people from SAO(Social Action Office) went to our class and told us that the meeting place will be there. CJ can’t wait any longer so she went home already. Too bad di niya nakita! It was 6pm when it started so we went outside. The moment we went outside, there were so many people already and the crowd grew bigger. We saw Cerisse, Neela and Tracy outside and they went with us. Kevin was really pissed ’cause he wasn’t able to bring his DSLR with him. He just used his camphone instead and video-ed it. I just wonder whether some people who were there knew why they were doing that for. Because sadly, some didn’t know what’s happening. And I said, “Oh my god, don’t tell me hindi mo alam ang nangyayari?” And he said hindi daw. And some, don’t really care. I don’t know if it’s got something to do with their social status that they don’t give a damn on what’s happening in our country. Whatever their social status is, they’re still a citizen of our country. Oh well.

Anywayyyy, this is just some update. I think I will put up my new layout on Monday or within this week. I just got lazy on fixing it because I accidentally erased the almost-finished code and I got so pissed so I got lazy. Lol.

Yun lang! One week before Ne-yo! Ohyea.

Fast and the furious again.

Oh myyyy gosh! Our internet connection speed is almost like back to the way it was before! Mabilis na siya ulitttt! Oh yeah. Thanks to my brother. I don’t know how he did it but he kind of got into the canopy of other users. Hahaha. It’s illegal I think, but our connection since December or late November of last year really suckkkkked! I mean big time! LOL. So what can we do? What should he do, dba? Haha. I asked my blockmates who uses the same connection as ours but their connection has no problem at all. I don’t know what happened to ours. So thankfully, ayos na siya. Yeyyy!

So wala lang. I just want to share my.. err.. happiness? LOL. )

Marami akong ipo-post at ikekwento dapat e kaya lang tinatamad ako. Pag libre ang oras, pwede na.

LSS: With You by Chris Brown

Tagged.

Rules:
Do the following without any complaints.
Choose 5 lucky people to do this after you have done it.
Leave a tag at his/her tagboard if he/she has been tagged.

FAVORITES:
Colors : green, blue, a little bit of orange. black & white, but then, those aren’t colors.
Food: italian, chinese, seafoods, filipino, korean, american, lahat na. lol.
Song: [For all time] this i promise you by nsync.(yun lang naisip ko e, pero lam ko madami pa.) [For now] White Love Story- As One and Goodbye – The Melody (Coffee Prince OSTs)
Movie: A Walk to remember. The Notebook. If Only. 50 first dates.
Sports: Basketball. Badminton.
Day of the week: Wednesdays and Thursdays.
Season: Ermm… Christmas? Lol.
Ice cream: Cookies and Cream. Rocky road. Anything with chocolate on it.

CURRENTS:
Mood: NR. Lol.
Taste: –
Shirt: navy blue.
Desktop: Coffee prince cover.
Toenail: orange-y nail polish.
Time: 2:34am
Surroundings: not too hot, not too cold.
Thoughts: nothing.

FIRSTS:
Bestfriend: Ermm… hmm. Forgot. I was kinder then. And I don’t know if she/they were my bestfriends. Hahaha. Honestly, I didn’t have much best friends.
Movie: don’t remember.
Lie: dunno.
Songs: those old rock songs yata that I hear when my brother’s perform way back 1995 or so. LOL.

LASTS:
Cigar: I don’t smoke.
Drink: Juice.
Car ride: Yesterday.
Phone call: Lol, can’t remember. Maybe yesterday’s yesterday? Or last week? Or.. hmm.
CD: Can’t remember! Lonnngg time.

HAVE YOU EVER:
Dated your best friend: No.
Broke the law: Maybe? I dunno. What do you mean by law? As in, Philippine Constitution? Haha.
Been arrested: Nope.
Kissed someone you don’t know: No.

5 THINGS YOU’RE WEARING:
bracelet.
slippers.
pj’s.
t-shirt.
earrings.

4 THINGS YOU’VE DONE TODAY:
Net surf.
Watched TV.
Had a conference with my blockmates in YM.
Fixed my blockmate’s CSS in LJ which made my head kind of hurt. LOL.

3 THINGS YOU CAN HEAR NOW:
My bro’s TV from his room.
The keyboard type.
Music.

Tagged by: Noime. Thanks Noiii!

I tag..
Cerisse.
Renz.
Kim.
Chel.

can’t think of nyone else.
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Kinukulit ko kuya ko kanina(3am). Nawala yung internet e. Pangit. Kaya pumunta ako sa room niya, kinulit siya. Matutulog na dapat siya, nakahiga na, at nanonood ng tv. Hehehe. Pinapatigil niya ako kasi matutulog na raw siya pero kinukulit ko pa rin. Hehehe.

Kuya: Sige dare kita, pagdating ni Kuya Junjun* mamaya, kulitin mo siya.
Me: Ayoko.
Kuya: Wala, chicken ka.
Me: Hindi. Chick ako. Maliit. Di ako chicken.
Kuya: Hm, hindi ka maliit. BAKULAW ka na e! Bakulaw!
Me: PANGIT KA!
Kuya: BAKULAW! BWAHAHAHHAHA!!!!
Me: Pangit, bakulaw!
=))

*My 2nd brother. They(older bro, cousin and some family friends) were out drinking for some personal reasons. Pakker.

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Me: Kuya akin muna si Bunny*
Kuya: … Ayoko.
Me: Sige na.
Kuya: Si Bunny na nga lang nagpapasaya sa kin dito sa room e.
Me: Hm. *plays with Bunbun’s hand(I call teh Bunny as Bunbun)*
Kuya: Kasi tuwing nakikita ko si Bunny naaalala ko little sister ko… BAKULAW!!!
Me: Wah! Pangit ka! Akin na muna si Bunny! Yey akin muna!
Kuya: Sige. Kukunin ko yan mamaya sa’yo pag tulog ka na.

*Bunny is a gift given to my brother by his girl friend of 8 years. I call him Bunbun.

Ey em sek.

Mannn, I hate being sick. Well, hindi naman talaga may sakit, inuubo at sinisipon lang. Ayheyteettt. I think it’s due to cold weather. Yay, December na talaga! Ohwellpoz.

Hmm. Ano nga bang ginagawa ko dito sa blog ko? Wala lang, gusto ko lang mag-type. Samantalang, meron pa akong position paper na gagawin para sa pinanood namin na Ratatouille(tama ba spelling? hehe) nung Thursday na dahilan kung bakit hindi kami nakapag-pre-enrollment agad. Sinisi daw ba ang movie ng dagang chef. Pero nakakatuwa naman siya, di nga lang namin natapos kaya papanoorin ko siya ulit ngayon.

Tapos, meron pa kaming group report bukas na hindi ko pa nagagawa! Wala pa akong nasisimulan. Gah, sana hindi kami matuloy bukas. Tapos marami pa akong gagawin.. may pinapa-upload sakin yung kaklase ko na sandamakmak na pictures niya na sinend niya sa phone ko. Pag hindi ko raw yung in-upload, itatapon niya yung kakabili ko lang na libro ni Bob Ong na Stainless Longganisa. Sige, subukan lang niya. Haha.

Ayun, marami pa talaga akong gagawin. May quiz pa yata kami bukas sa isang subject. Tapos may kelangan pa akong i-send sa ka-group ko na research para sa report namin sa Thursday sa isa pang subject. Yehey, ang saya. Tapos heto ako, nagtatype sa blog ko. Galing ko talaga.

Hmm. Talo nanaman kami sa basketball kanina. Dalawang beses na sila nananalo, kami isa pa lang. Gahhh. Sobrang napagod ako dun. As in, yun lang yung laro na napagod ako. Dati, tawa pa kami ng tawa. Ngayon, medyo seryoso na. Hehe, aliw at masaya naman e, kaya ayos lang.

Ano pa bang gagawin ko? Marami pa. Hindi ko na maisip ano. Kaya siguro nung weekend, nagmukmok lang ako sa kwarto at natulog nang natulog. Para akong wasted. Kala mo yung may problema o yung ginagawa ng taong heartbroken. ) Pero syempre, hindi naman ako yun. Ganun lang talaga, pagod lang ng sobra.

Anyway highway. Toink toink! Hmm. Ipangalan ko kaya sa balak kong domain yun? Toinks.net? Hahahaha! Togoinks. Toinkers! Ok, wala na kong magawa. :p Hmm. Kakain pa ako. Nagugutom na ang tiyan ko. Bai bai.

Unorganized blah. Me-talk.

I often get frustrated already.

I am frustrated with a lot of things: music, drawing, Photoshop, digital arts, writing, studies, and myself. Yes, I am frustrated with things I love and love to do. I know I should use this frustration as a drive to get better and that I should make the people good at the things I mentioned above as an inspiration. My optimistic self says that I can be better, that I can learn how to be better, that I can do what people good at those things can do; but my pessimistic self(I just knew I have this, I never thought I could have this in me, sad) tells me to give up already, and that I can never be good at those things.

I want to do what my optimistic self tells me to do because it’s what the Cha I know would do. But on the contrary, my body and mind follows what my pessimistic self says.

I hate it. So much drama. Bakit ba kasi ang drama ko? Hay. O baka masyado lang akong nag-iisip?

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Nowadays, I easily give up. I easily get tired and lazy. I easily get scared of the unknown. I easily get scared of the uncertain. Now that’s not so me. It’s not the Charlene I know. I’m usually game for challenges, for the future, for everything. Now.. it’s different, very.

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I realize my life is becoming a routine.

Everyday, I wake up, take a bath, eat, go to school, sleep in the car for almost 1hour waiting to reach school, sit in class, listen to my profs, talk to my blockmates, hang-out with them, eat lunch, go to class again, try to listen to my profs, talk to my blockmates while the prof is discussing something, wait for dismissal, wait for sundo, go to office, wait there until 6-8pm, sleep while waiting for us to go home, go home, arrive at home, go to room, open computer, go downstairs, eat dinner, computer/internet, set phone alarm, sleep. Then the next day, I do the same thing over again.

I’m scared that the time will come when I will get tired with my life. I hope not. I don’t want that. Kaya lang, feeling ko malapit na yun dumating. Ayoko man, pero ganun ang nararamdaman ko. Actually, I’m starting to get tired of my life now. I feel guilty saying that thinking of the number of people out there who’s dying to experience a good life just like mine. But it’s what I feel. Sad. Maybe I’m just tired. I thought I already got to recharge myself, but it seems like I’m running out of battery again.

Three weeks left until 2nd term ends. 26 days until Christmas. 33 days until 2008.
I can’t wait for 2nd term to end. I can’t feel that Christmas is approaching. I’m dying for this year to end already.

2007 is a good year for me and for my family. It is. It really is. But I don’t get why I can’t wait for it to end already.

And for 16 years of my existence, I still don’t get myself.

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If you actually know me, you’ll say I don’t have any worries, that I am a happy and optimistic person because you’ll always see me smiling, laughing or making people . Actually, I am. Or maybe, I was. That’s the Cha I know. Now? I kind of doubt if I really am Cha.

My head hurts and I am blurred as my eyes.

I blame myself that my computer has 329 threats because I didn’t download AVG first.

My post is unorganized and blah. Yes? Oh well, whatever. I can’t think straight.

My head hurts.
My head hurts.

Good night.

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maybe I am just thinking too much. I am so pakeen emotional. The hell. Hmph. I don’t understand myselffffffffffffffffffffff since last night. Gahhhhh. What should I do to make myself feel better? Mygally.

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Help save the environment.

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Bubbly.

WARNING: Random post. Tagalog. Wala, gusto ko lang magkwento. LOL.

Bubbly? Bakit nga ba bubbly ang title neto? Wala lang, LSS kasi ako sa song na yan ngayon. Ganda eh. Bubbly by Colbie Calait. Narealize ko paiba-iba talaga ang taste ko sa music. Merong mas nangingibabaw sa ibang genre at a certain point pero gusto ko pa rin yung ibang genres. Ay, labo. Haha.

Hindi pala dapat Bubbly ang title ng post kong ‘to. Dapat “headache” or “bugbok na utak ko”. Wala lang. Kagabi kasi bugbog na bugbog utak ko. Siguro buong araw akong nakatutok sa computer at himala, sinipag akong gawin ang website na pinapagawa sa ‘kin nila kuya. Yey for me! First time kong gumawa ng website na .com. Yung tipong ako talaga yung administrator. Grr. So I’m still figuring out how things work. It’s still under construction. Pero grabe, pag-figure out ko na nga lang pano gawing mail.domain.com yung Webmail instead dun sa binigay na domain.com:2095 (dba ganyan?), namroblema na ko. Eh syempre baka malimutan nila yung number sa dulo. Hehe. Pero buti na lang nagawa ko rin! domain.com/mail nga lang pero ayos na yun. Masaya na ‘ko dun. Thanks nga pala kay Christian sa pagtulong rin sa ‘kin. Bugbog rin pala ang kamay ko kaka-type. Linalagay ko kasi mga contacts sa address book ng email nila. At may email rin akong bago under sa domain name na yun, lol. Kung may bayad lang sana ako dito dba, eh wala e. Free food, board & lodging, education and other stuffs lang naman. That’s basically my life. So ok na lang rin.

Inayos ko rin yung gallery ng konti. Ganun pala yung gamit ng Fantastico noh? Hahaha. Ngayon ko lang na-gets. Di ko alam anong use nyan dati eh. LOL. Newb! to think na nagddesign ako ng websites for almost 5 years na rin. My gally! I know I still have a lot to learn. GO MMA! Hehehe. Sabi ko rin, 7pm ang cut-off time ko sa work na yan. Eh ayoko tumigil hangga’t hindi ko naaayos yung hindi pa naayos. Ayun, umabot ako ng mga 10pm. May break pa yun kasi kumain, syempre. LOL. At dahil dyan…

Hindi ko nagawa ang COMSK1x(Communication Skills 1) homework namin na nakakabugbog rin ng utak. Grabe. Tungkol sa Thesis Statement yun. Na-miscarriage pa kasi yung orig. prof namin so na-replace sya. And the replacement will be our prof until the end of the term. Great. Pahirap. Pero ayos lang rin, kasi mas may natututunan kami sa kanya. Kung sana nagawa ko yun nung Friday or Saturday. Hay eto nanaman ako. Gusto ko na ‘tong baguhin! Nakakainis.

So pumasok ako, late ng mga 10minutes. Grr. Late nanaman ako nagising. Buti na lang evaluation ng teachers. Eh mahaba yun, so na-consume ng pageevaluate namin yung isang oras na period sa karamihan ng subjects. Natatakot ako kasi wala akong HW sa COMSK1x. LOL. Buti na lang may consideration yung prof. Ngayon lang daw yun. Bait nun sa ‘min(medyo). Haha. Nung una 2:30pm daw ang deadline. Tapos nagbigay nung isa pang HW due on Wednesday(I’ll make sure na nagawa ko na ‘to beforehand lol) at take home quiz due on Friday. Ang galeennng. Ngayon lang kami nakapag-take home quiz. HAHA. After nun, nagbago isip nya, minove nya yung deadline ng HW namin ng 4:00. Ang saya saya. Eh dapat di na kami gagawa. Mga kasama ko kasi eh. Pero sa isip ko, sayang naman yung binigay na extension ni Ms. kung di ko gagawin. Sayang ang grade!!! So ginawa ko. Nagpunta kami ng isaw-an tapos after pumasok kami sa internet shop malapit dun. Tinulungan rin ako ng blockmate ko. Tapos napass ko! Ewan ko kung tama pinaglalagay ko dun. Basta nagawa ko. LOL.

Wala lang. )

Hmm, para sa ‘kin, masaya sa school. Ewan ko, basta lagi akong masaya pag nasa school. Bakit ba ganun? Kayo ba? Hehe.

Wala lang ulit. LOL. Ganda ng post ko no. Haha.
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Week-long vacation, Cost-cutting & Birthdays.

Hey everyone. How’s your vacation bloggers? It’s pretty long especially for those who are having their sembreaks. It’s nice to recharge our energies after a stressful day, week, month, term, semester or whatsoever. My vacation was pretty nice although I just stayed at home. At least I don’t have any homeworks, quizzes and projects to worry about now. ^_^ I’m just relaxing. Hehe. Midterms is already finished just last Wednesday. Filipino was our last midterm and it was okay. I was late though. Lol. Damn you 7am classes! Anyway, our online enlistment starts on Monday. I’m gonna get a good schedule! NO MORE 7AM CLASSES FOR ME! Nu-uh! There’s no way, kokey! Haha. I hope I can be classmates with some of my blockmates in 3rd term. In at least one to two subjects! Or if I’m lucky, all subjects. Haha. It’s possible, isn’t it?

Anyway, aside from worrying about the online enlistment, ’cause we all don’t know how to yet, our 2nd half for 2nd term starts on Monday! It means another set of projects, quizzes and all those school works! It’s time to change my way of doing things. I should start doing it right away and not wait 2 or 3 days before the deadline to come knocking at my door. Why? ‘Cause it sucks. It’s stressful. It means sleepless nights and pressure. I hate it. I don’t want myself to get used to it. I don’t want my work to pile up! Kelangan ko na magsipag ulit. I should follow my schedules. What in the world are organizers for? It’s useless if I don’t follow it. I wonder what’s in Starbucks for Christmas? LOL. We worked hard for our Starbucks planners last year, mind you. Yes, we worked hard for it. Working hard means getting ourselves broke at the end of the year just to get that freakin’ planner! But it’s fine, we wanted it anyway. And I get to bond with my friends a lot during those days. I miss those times! Plus you have your favorite Starbucks drink with you. Ahhhh, love! Haha. But now, I don’t go to Starbucks often. Cost-cutting ako eh. But even if I cut my starbucks indulgences, I’m still broke. Damnit. Christmas is fast approaching and I don’t have money to buy gifts! Nagagastos ko yung ipon ko. Di pa rin ako nakakapag-start mag-ipon. Gastos ko kasi. I HATE IT. Hindi pwede ito. Pano na ang gusto kong tablet? at and DSLR? Hmpp. Idagdag mo pa sa gastos ang online shopping sa multiply. WAHH. ARGH. Okay, stop. This needs action. Kelangan ko na talaga mag-ipon. -_- Kaya ko ‘to.

It’s unusual of me to blog at this time. It’s 1:47am on my computer clock. I got home at around 12 something AM from Makati. It was my blockmate’s debut at Toyz Cafe. It was an informal one. And since it’s Halloween, it’s a costume party. I wore a white bubble dress with butterfly wings and wand. LOL. I’m a fairy! Hahaha. It was fun. Tumugtog ang Day One Movement. Si Sib Sibulo yung vocalist nila. Grabe, ang lapit ko sa stage. Literally! Tipong nasa harap ko na yung band. Ako lang yung andun malapit sa kanila. Walang gustong maki-share sa inuupuan ko. Sofa kasi yun. Hahaha, nakakahiyang tumingin sa banda. Atsaka magkaka-stiff neck ako kung pinanood ko sila buong set nila. Di ko kasi maharap sa stage yung sofa, mabigat e. I also got a gift certificate worth P1,000 from Rudy Project. Sponsor kasi nila. So lahat nung naka-costume, may gift certificate. Sponsor rin pala niya yung Coors Light. Libre ang beer namin! Hahaha. Yung invitation, may stub pa para sa vodka. Parang ticket lang e noh. Haha. Pure vodka pala yung nainom ko kanina. Di ko alam yun talaga. Akala ko nahaluan na siya ng lime para di malakas ang tama. Pero wala namang epekto sakin. Haha. At ayoko talaga ng lasa ng beer. Di ako beer person. Atsaka occasionally lang naman ako umiinom. Mabait ako e. Wahehehe.

My next birthday stop will be on November… 17. Which means.. I can’t go to my org’s Photo-Video Workshop which will be held on Nov.17-18. It’s an out-of-town trip to Bataan. I sossss wanna go! But heck, I promised Nikita(my high school ka-barkada) that I’ll go. And I miss my high school friends. It’s one way of bonding with them again. Debut pala yun. Pero simple lang, sa bahay lang niya. Marami talagang may birthday tuwing November. At least sa mga kakilala ko, marami ang November. One year na pala nakalipas. Last year dalawang birthday party in-attend-an namin sa same na araw. After nung birthday party ni Nikita nun sa bahay nila, pumunta naman kami sa birthday party ng isa pa naming barkada sa Timog. High school pa ko nun. Ang saya. Pero ngayon, shet, college na. Ang bilis pa ng araw. 17 na ko next year! Legal na ang iba sa ‘min nun. Ako 2 years pa. Tumatanda na talaga kami. Kaya live life to the fullest. Time flies by so fast. Ay bago pa pala ako mag-17, magpaPasko at New Year muna. Masyado akong excited e. Haha.

Mahaba na ‘to. Masyado akong madaldal. Haha. Thanks for taking the time to read though. Take care bloggers!