You’ll always be a fart to me.

Heyyyy! Just some updates. :] So it’s exactly 8 days before school starts! YAY! Hello, sophomore year! Deym, time flies by reallll fast. It’s gonna be all school work now beybbb! At least I have something to worry about and think about and yeah. I guess I like it better when there’s school. I got things to do and I don’t bore myself. I dunno but since college, I just want to go to school. Hahaha. Srsly! You know during HS when classes get suspended cos of some typhoons or other reasons, I get really happy cos there’s no school. But now? I feel otherwise. Haha. Weird. But I think that’s good. I love learning new things. Better yet, I love education. :]

Anyway, this one month summer has been treating me so-so. I felt different things. I felt melancholic, nostalgic, happy, and other kind of stuff. I, once again, learned new things. I guess that’s something inevitable in life. Of course. We’re here to learn, right? And those things we learn make us discover who we are. I’ve just realized a lot of things. Like, how things can change especially feelings, like 7 years ago you may not like someone but 7 years later you realize you feel something ‘different’ towards that someone; how you can terribly miss someone so bad(yeah, terrible na bad pa haha); how you can feel really stupid after getting mad angry about something and the next day you realize you were just totally carried away of what happened; how you get sad when you think that that someone was once yours but now is living another kind of life far from yours; and other things I can’t put into words. There are just some things that’s fairly impossible to happen now yet you still hope that those things will come back to the way it used to be. It sucks like that.

Also I have come to think that no matter what, no matter how many years have passed or how many things may have changed, I will always be that person’s number one. I will always be that first. I should be thankful that we’re still friends. And I’m glad that that person still keeps me updated about the things happening in his life. If you think this is some ‘ex’, no it’s not. I haven’t had any boyfriend since birth, it’s just some ‘past’ thingy. OY. HAHA. Boink, drama much? LOL. I don’t wanna elaborate more, that person MIGHT read this. Stupid, I gave him the URL of this blog. Who knows, haha, I just don’t want that person to know YET. If ever I plan on telling that person someday. Maybe. So yeah, I just never thought I’d feel like this, that’s why. LOL.

So enough of that. :p I went to school yesterday to get an adjustment form and a deferred payment plan. My course adjustment schedule is on the 16th, Friday! OMGZ. Cerisse and I doesn’t have the same schedule! I should’ve went to school last Friday! BAH. I’m gonna add one subject since I’m underload and I don’t want that. The only schedule I saw that will fit my already encoded sched is the Tuesday&Thursday sched for CATHWOR(Catholic Worship) subject which is. 2:40-4:10…. OMGZ. I just realized that it doesn’t fit at all! HAHAHAHA. I thought it was a one day schedule. DEYM. WHAT A BUMMER. I have a Tuesday class 2:45-5:45! I just checked my sched again, OMGZ. WTHWTHWTH. Cerisseeeee, what naaaa? Take FREHAND? Hahaha. SHOCKS. SHOCKERRRR. Mannnn. :]]]]]] Why didn’t I check my sched earlier? Stupid! ) Grr. Okay, wait, imma calm myself down. Haha.

So yeah. I didn’t know that yesterday was the FOP(Frosh Orientation Program)! Haha. I went and I didn’t know. I wanna be an orientor next year for incoming frosh. It’s fun really! Haha. Oh well. My mom and my brother went inside the SDA building, by the way. Haha. My brotha parked in the carpark, LOLZ. The guard asked him, “Estudyante po?” He said, “Graduate na.” HAHAHA! Too bad I wasn’t able to like tour them around since we’re going somewhere after. Maybe on Friday. They said they’ll just stay in the cafeteria. And oh yessss I got to wear slippers inside the SDA building! Hahaha. Slippers are banned inside our campus. If you get caught, uh-oh, hello Disciplinary Office! I got caught once in the main building. Bah. :]] Never wore slippers since then :]] After school, we went to my brother’s school since he’ll get a form to get his Transcript of Records and Diploma. He just graduated last March so I’m the only one left in the family studying. Yayyy. Then we ate at KFC then went to Ortigas to fetch my brother’s girlfriend from work.

AND we got home at around 10pm! WTH. It’s sooooo traffic! We were in the QC Circle at around 7pm? But we were almost there for like an hour! I just slept. Haha. It’s prolly because of the transport strike. People were walking in the streets, bunch of them! Walang masakyan. Yay. To think it’s raining, so hassle! I think it’s good that I haven’t been in front of the PC for one whole day. Natiis ko. Hahaha.

Anyway that’s it for now. I’m trying to figure out why I can’t view blogspot sites. Google keeps on telling that it’s “404 FORBIDDEN”. WTH? Some virus crap daw. Blah. Why do you think it’s like that? Grabe, napahaba nanaman post ko. Betta get going before this gets longer than this already long one, haha. :]

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you’ll be with me
and you’ll never go

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You’ll always be a part of me
I’m part of you indefinitely

On a lot of things. :)

Some things here, I’ve already said on my previous post but this one’s from my Multiply blog I just posted today. Might as well post it here. BTW, I mentioned below that I want to change my layout, but I dunno. The blog part of the site has small width, which makes it hard for people to read. Whaddyathink?

ON BEING A BUM:
I need to stop being a bum in front of the pc all the time. I’m hating it already. Doing the same things all over again. Though I’m having fun with Photoshop, it’s not all I do. I turn to MySpace, Facebook and Friendster all the time. Especially Facebook and MySpace! BOO! It’s so damn addicting! And this blog, I get lazy updating it. I feel like I wanna change the layout again. I have one ready, already coded and all that, but I’m just too lazy.

ON GOING OUT:
Now I need to go out. I wanna go out with my gerlssss. Deym I need to talk to them! As in NEED. Lots of things I wanna tell them. o_o And I miss my high school friends. If one of you are reading thisssss! OMGZ! Let’s go out! I’m missing them badlyyyyy. Supasupasupafriends, haven’t hung out with y’all for quite some time now. Makes me sad.

ON DVDS:
I need to buy DVDs, the series of Gossip Girl and the O.C. Koreanovelas too! Like Hana Kimi, and other good stuff. You know other Koreanovelas that you can call ‘good stuff’ you can recommend me?

ON BOOKS:
I also need to buy the books I’ve been wanting to read for the whole past year. Like the last Harry Potter book. I’m a loser for not having one yet. The Twilight series! Migadddd, I’ve watched the trailer and it’s so effin’ awesome. 12/12, Twilighters! And this year’s also the release of the last book in the series. Other good books to recommend, people?

ON PROJECTS:
And I also need to finish the website I’ve been doing for the past weeks. BAH. I dunno, it’s just that whenever I think, I get headaches. LOL. I like thinking though.

ON THINGS:
AND.. I like preoccupying myself with thingssss to do.

ON TIME:
Man, time is running out. School’s almost near, atleast for me. Cos yknow how time flies by real fast? Yeah. Yeaa. Boohoo.

ON ACDC:
Lately, we[yeah, Cerisse included hahaha] have been obsessing with ACDC[Adam/Chu Dance Crew]. And their shirt’s on sale now!!! Mr. Chu made it available werrldwide! Butttt, it’s worth effin’ $21.70, shipping included! Whathebuckkk! I don’t have that kind of money. I even told my friend from Cali to buy me an ACDC shirt, his gift for my birthday! He said, “haha maybe”. I was kidding though. But I was kidding! I just hope he’s not reading this. LOL. Yeah right, like the ACDC shirts are selling like hotcakes. LOL. Last time I checked, there are only two pieces left. I just hope they print more! So by that time, I already have money to buy it cos I just spent my money on online shopping in Multiply! LOL. The ACDC shirts are for charity anyways! But Cerisse messaged Mr. Chu if we can print ACDC shirts here in the Phils., we made our own designs. But he didn’t reply, he just read it. Booooo. Maybe it’s bcos they made it available worldwide and he of course, assumed that the info already spread on us, so no need to reply. Soo even if we’ll have our own ACDC shirts printed… STILL! I want their ACDC sherrrt! FOREALLLZ! I wanna be part of the crew. Hahaha! That’s what Adam Sevani said on his bulletin on MySpace! “Be part of the crew.” That’s why I’m loving MySpace. You get to talk to them! Like Cerisse, he got to talk with Harry Shum, Jr.(Cable on Step Up 2)! HAHAHAHA! Anyways, nuff with the ACDC talk. My brother told me I’m obsessed wit dem already. And so as my friend from Cali. So I guess, I am obsessed with them! Haha.

ON YOUTUBE:
Does anyone of you know Nigahiga of YouTube? HAHAHA! His vids are sooo funny! The result of boredom I guess. But heck, he’s got like a million views for every video he have on his channel! He’s got like 271,450 subscribers! Include me on that. Haha. PLUS! He’s cute btw! :p Hahaha. Youtube crush, LOLZ! I’ve also subscribed on Jon M. Chu’s YTube channel and as well as the Miley&Mandy Show. And I’m wonderin’, what’s up with singing and ukeleles in the U.S.? I dunno, it’s like very popular. I love this one though, Windward Skies cover. Thanks to my friend for showing that to me. And I saw this very kawaii video too called Animal Idol. Yeah, an American Idol for animals. Lol. So maybe you figured out what I do whenever I’m online. I just don’t get how I can spend my whole day just doing all these. Sux000.

ON MUSIC:
I just realized my taste for music has uhmm, how do you put it, broaden? I dunno, I just like listening to country songs lately. Thanks to MySpaceeeee! I just realized how I love praise songs too. Hillsong United will be having a concert here on the 26th! A day just before my berrrrthdayyym. I would love to see them live. And oh, I love hearing old school songs lately! It lights me up, brings a smile to my face. Imma download Backstreet Boys songs. What other good old songs are there? Make me remember. And I had my seat reserved on Marie Digby’s online concert on the 19th, 6am, our time. That’s veryyy early so I have to like get up at around 5am. I bet there’ll be a massive site traffic. I just hope my PC won’t crash. I want to buy her album! As well as Taylor Swift’s album. I heard her songs on MS and I loved it. Anywaysss…

ON AGE:
I feel like I’m 17 already. HAHA. ) I still have 19 days left to enjoy my sweeeettt 16. Was it sweet? Ionnooo. LOL.

ON AMERICAN IDOL:
Top 4 finalists are the 2 Davids, Syesha and Jason Castro. After their performance? I bet Jason Castro will go. So top 3 are the 2 Davids and Syesha. My top 2? The 2 Davids. David Archuleta and David Cook. Whoever wins, it’s okay. They’re both good.

ON REALITY:
Reality slapped me once again on my face! LIKE IT ALWAYS DOES! ) After I read Anna’s S-S.org blog! Haha. Ooh, Imma post this on my blogspot too. I need to like, update that from my random blahs.

ON RENZ:
I’m sorry I wasn’t able to give to you your vectorrrr! Haha. Sorry talagaaaa! But you can wait more right? Hehe. Thanks Renzzyyy!

The weak week.

WARNING: Long post ahead. :p

Okay so it’s been almost one week since I updated my blog. WTH I can’t believe it’s already May 1! OHGOSH. May 21 pasok na namin!!! BAH. I should finish the things I need to do and want, as well. :p I need to go to school on days 14-17, whenever during that week for course adjustment. I don’t wanna be underload! Grr. I want to watch DVDs which I haven’t been able to buy yet and read books like Twilight. Yeaaa. I still have like 91 days to read all three books before the last book comes. Hahaha. I saw the movie behind the scenes and some fan-made trailers and it’s all awesome. I’m getting excited though I haven’t read the book yet. I mean, it’s a romantic vampire story, who wouldn’t want that? Everyone is like in love with Edward and Bella. Hahaha. Today’s my brother’s girlfriend birthday and yesterday we bought gifts for her. So I suggested my brother to give her a book. We were supposed to buy the new Nicholas Sparks book since she said she’ll buy it, might as well give her the book. But it wasn’t available in that National Bookstore branch. So we bought another book which is, Twilight. Wah, if I get my pay I’d surely splurge my money on books but still save something for erm, things I need in school later on.

Last week, I was having a hard time. It wasn’t my week last week, I was just really sad. No, actually I wasn’t. I was moody! Sobrang nakakainis kasi sobra yung mood swings. One minute I’m happy, then another I’m sad. I hated it. It got to the point where I cannot feel anything anymore. I cried because of that. I’d rather feel anything, even pain, than not feeling anything at all. I felt dead. But the next day which is Monday, I had this dream. Imma paste this from my Multiply.

I woke up earlier than what I expected, I thought it was already 11 am, but I looked at the clock and it was still quarter to 9am. So I turned on the PC, checked my myspace, friendster, facebook, multiply, mail and blog hopped. I DLed songs and..

My mom, someone else I don’t know who and I were talking and suddenly, I couldn’t speak. I tried so hard to speak but I couldn’t. Tapos na-realize ko may nakabara sa throat ko so tinanggal ko. That was really weird. When I did, I started to bleed. Nagsusuka na ako ng dugo. Then I didn’t know what to do. And my nose also started to bleed. I was helpless. I asked God for help, I prayed really hard. And I was thinking if I should go to the hospital already or what, but I thought it would end soon. But it didn’t. All I can see is red blood. I thought I was dying! I called my friends using my phone and we went to see each other. I texted Jesy, she told me to go to FEU-NRMF then find her there. I said, “it’s too late.”

Then I woke up.

It’s weird cos I rarely experience dreams in my sleep. When I woke up, I can still remember the feeling of not being able to speak. But I thank God that it was all just a dream. I was freaked out! I was really freaked out. It got me thinking through out the day even the meaning of it. I searched for a dream dictionary online since I don’t know where our old dream dictionary is.

Blood

To see blood in your dream, represents life, love, and passion as well as disappointments. If you see the word “blood” written in your dream, then it may refer to some situation in your life that is permanent and cannot be changed.

To dream that you are bleeding or losing blood, signifies that you are suffering from exhaustion or that you are feeling emotionally drained. It may also denote bitter confrontations between you and your friends. Your past actions has come back to haunt you.

Throat

It shows considerable powers of imagination and signifies a successful venture.

Nose

Instinctive knowledge. It reflects great powers of imagination and creativity, but also difficult relations with a partner.

Red

This is an indication of great passion and sensitivity in your emotional relationships.

Help

To dream that you are calling or signaling for help, suggests that you are feeling lost, overwhelmed, and/or inadequate.

Helpless

To dream that you are or feel helpless, suggests that you are experiencing difficulties in confronting a situation or relationship. You feel that you are unable to take charge of yourself.

Silence

To dream that you are silent, indicates an inability to express yourself. You may feel inhibited in voicing your opinion and how you really feel.

So that’s it. Maybe that’s what I’m feeling for the past week that I couldn’t exactly explain what. What my dream meant was actually true in my reality.

So yeah, but I’m better now compared last week. Way way better. Going out helped a lot.

Speaking of going out, mom, dad, my brother and his girlfriend went to a Jap restaurant along Panay Avenue to eat last Tuesday. There, we talked about the past, how we got here, why we went here, and everything back then.

So now I know the real reason why we moved here to Manila from Cotabato.

I was born in Cotabato City but I am in Manila for like 11 years already. Almost half my life so basically, I grew up in Manila. Quezon City, specifically. I was 6 when we moved here. Before, I thought the reason why we moved here is bcos of my brothers who then has a band. They had an album and their song became a hit. So the recording company, which is Polycosmic Records then but Universal Records now, said they should come to Manila already. So we did. And they did TV guestings and all that. I was with them all the way. It was such a challenge moving here cos when we moved, we had no house at all! And our furnitures and all are still in the ship. LOL. That was around April 1999, a month after I graduated kindergarten.

Back in Cotabato, business was really good. Meron kaming video games store(all over Cotabato), movie rentals(back when vhs tapes and laser discs were very popular haha) store and an all-in-one bar, restaurant, club, videoke named after my name. LOL. Business was really doing well. Kami yung unang may ganun dun. Hindi pa tapos yung construction, pina-open na. Lots of artists went there like Manilyn Reynes, UMD Dancers, Streetboys, Yano, etc etc etc. I can’t remember though cos I was still young. Nung in-open yun, sobrang dami raw ng tao. Naubusan pa ng food and beer. LOL. Tapos may mga G.R.O. pa daw, hahahaha! And they held contests there like dance contests, costume contest every Halloween and all that. Pinauso din dun yung Ladies Night which is every Wednesday, Ballroom night, and etcetera. Yung restaurant, sobrang okay yung food. I remember nakaakyat pa ako sa kitchen. Yung videoke, may 5 private videoke rooms and a big videoke room outside it. The 5 videoke rooms were all named after our Zodiac Signs: Aquarius, Capricorn, Gemini, Taurus, and Libra. Lahat yun nasa isang building. It’s a big lot cos from what I remember, it’s only one floor. Tumugtog din dun mga kuya ko. Then dad told us na nabilib yung manager ng isang band na nakasabay nila kuya and sinabi niya, “Grabe, malayo mararating nito.” Tapos masayang-masaya sila after kasi may sweldo sila, 50 pesos! Pero mind you, malaki na yun nung time na yun.

Though business was really good, my parents had been receiving death threats even before the bar was opened. Three all in all. Two before the bar was opened, and another one when it was already opened.. I guess. Basta tatlo. They didn’t mind it. Hindi sila nagbigay ng kung anong money kahit na pinagbantaan na ng kidnap and all those shits. 50k ang hinihingi nun. To think, malaki na yung ganung amount dati dba? The military said na wag magbigay. Yeah, we had military escorts. I was like, whoa! “Parang secret service, haha.”. They showed the first two letter threats to the military and so ayun. Kinekwento ng mom ko na looking back, parang nakakahiya daw na may sumusunod sa’yo na military kahit san magpunta. Kahit mag-grocery lang or what. Hindi ko matandaan yun, seriously. Of course, bata pa ako.

Dun pa nabaril yung asawa nung auntie ko, kapatid ng mom ko. He was just outside then a drive-by happened. I still remember that! I was in the hallway, just near outside, talking to my brother and mom. Then we heard the gun shots. Then bam! Ayun. Grabe yun. Dun na kami natulog. Sa videoke lounge. To think that all of us were there! My cousins, my brothers, everyone. Grabe yun.

I don’t know when the third death threat came, before or after the incident, but it involves us, the children. Sabi dun, alam kung saan kami nag-aaral and all that. E natakot na si mommy, so sinabi niya kay dad na umalis na kami dun. E sakto, okay ang band nila kuya, may album tapos sakto pinapapunta sila dito sa Manila. So ayun, we’ve been here ever since. Hindi kami bumalik dun for like I don’t know how many years. Mga year 2005 yata nung bumalik kami.

But even though, those were the good times. Mga Christmas Party ng clan nun, hindi ko naabutan talaga. Tapos yung bawat branch ng movie rental and video games shop namin may presentation. That was fun. I can still remember that. Sumayaw kami nun e. Kaming magpipinsan, younger ones. I was like 3 or 4 that time. Haha!

But hands down to my parents that they were able to handle all that. Nung lumipat kami dito, dala-dala nila aside from us, their children, are my four cousins(included din sa band) and my uncle, my mom’s youngest brother. Alala ko nagpupunta kami ng ABS-CBN nun at kung saan-saan. Mall tours, bars and all. Those days when bars were really really popular. So bata pa lang ako, mahilig na ako magpuyat. Haha. Naalala ko dun sila sa Art’s Venue sa Taft tumutugtog dati. Karamihan ng big bands that time, andun. And they were the youngest of all. Sobrang hanga ako sa mga kuya ko e. They have the talent. They have the gadgets every band would want to have. And with just one incident and should I say, person, BAM! Nasira lahat. Banda, pati na rin pagsasamahan ng fam, ALMOST. At least hindi totally. But we can’t do anything about that anymore. Those were the past. It was just fun reliving all those. And I bet we learned a lot from that, all of us.

Thank God, walang nangyaring kahit ano sa ‘min.
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BTW. Do you know about the Biggest Online Dance Battle in YouTube? Holymoleeyyy, ACDC(Adam/Chu Dance Crew) PWNED Miley&Mandy BIGTIME. WTFWTF ACDC’s awesomeee! They got JABBAWOCKEEZZZ!!! And Brianna Evigan, Rob Hoffman, LL, Amanda Bynes, Britanny Snow, Chris Scott, Chris Brown babyyyy! WTH. Though M&M got Channing Tatum, Crumbs, and other good dancers, FO SHOOO M&M GOT PWNED! ) If you don’t know what this is, watch this. BUT FIRST, watch the video that started it all. And the video response which got 3 million views. WATCH. THE BIGGEST ONLINE DANCE BATTLE IN YOUTUBE HISTORY. They’ll rock your socks man! Haha. Can’t wait what M&M Cru will come up with.

A blessed day.

Last April 23, we celebrated my Dad’s birthday in our new house. Along with that is the House Blessing. So at around 10-11am, the priest arrived and after the house blessing, he ate with us. Mahaba-haba nga ang sermon niya. Haha. But it was really really nice. It was nice to bond with my family like that. The priest also told us about the Philippines, why our country is like this, etc etc, and how there is still hope for our country to rise up. Everything that’s happening in our country now are just challenges. It’s up to us how we’re going to conquer all those challenges. The government is the one that leads, guides and controls our country, but it is really us, the people, who will make our country a better place. And how are we going to do that? Go back to where everything started, family. The family is the first school, first church, first everything. That’s why family matters a lot. I have learned a lot from just one day, one day. And I love it.

Later on in the afternoon, our pastor friend from Cornerstone Christian Church dropped by to give the cake to my dad and he prayed us over. It was really touching. My dad cried. So as my brother, Kuya Carlos. I was nearly in tears, and so as my mom. I never felt God more than that day. I felt really blessed. Who could ever thought that that day would be that blessed? First birthday on our new home, I can feel God’s presence more than ever. Pastor Fred said that “your greatest wealth is the relationship with your family.” True enough. I cannot ever forget that line. He also said that no matter how many challenges had come into our lives and how many things there were that’s lost and left behind, God will give us even more than what we lost. Proverbs 24:16 says, “a righteous man falls seven times, and rises again”/”No matter how often honest people fall, they always get up again; but disaster destroys the wicked.” I know how much things aren’t the same as they were before and how many mistakes have been made in the past, but we’re almost getting to the way it has been before, only that we’re coming up as better people for the betterment of everyone, especially our family. Family is priceless.

That day, I was being sad because of something or rather someone. But after everything that has happened during that day, I had no reason to be sad at all. Because I am very blessed. I am very grateful and thankful that I am with my family. And they’re there for me, we will always have each other. And that friend I was being sad about, will also have my back, no matter what.

Well, some of the people who reads my blog knows who that person is.

You know this past few days, I’ve been… I don’t, I can’t explain how I’m feeling really. I just know that I miss someone. Period. And it’s just that no matter how much you do things, how much you occupy yourself doing a LOT of things, in the end, the pain just comes back again. The feeling and the thinking is still there. And it really sucks. Sometimes I wish I could just sleep forever. Well no, not really, but it’s in sleep that I’m peaceful and have nothing to think about. Maybe this will pass, just maybe. Maybe because it’s summer and school’s not on the way and yeah. Sigh. Why am I feeling pain? Why am I being sad? Well it’s just because reality keeps slapping me in my face. Yes yes, it does. But what can I do? It’s reality, I need to deal with it.

See, last night I turned off the PC earlier than what I used to, but I can’t sleep and I don’t want to yet. So I went to my brother’s room. Nakipagkulitan. Kumain. Nag-exercise. Palakad-lakad, pabalik-balik. Then my brother asked me, “Cha? Musta?” and how the usual me would say, “Okay lang.” Then tries to look okay. I just wanted to take that feeling away, and I can’t explain WHAT feeling that is. I played the guitar, asked my brother what song is easy to play, he told me the chords of Always Be My Baby and there, I played it. Turned on my pc again, played it over and over. Searched for the chords of Realize by Colbie Callait, Say it again by Marie Digby and all that. My fingers hurt. But it was fine. As long as I don’t feel that feeling. But after everything, it’s just didn’t work. It’s still there. So I went to sleep at 4am. Again.

I just hate how I’m always like that. Whenever I feel something that would make me ultimately happy, I always hold it back. I always hold it back. And what does it get me? It pains me. I’m always scared to get hurt. I’m always scared to be happy. Cos every time I’m happy, I always think that there will be something that will make me sad. Gah, I don’t know. I just.. blah.

Anyway, on the lighter side(lolz), I kept thinking about this conversation I had with my brother’s ex. She asked me what will I do after I graduate, then I said, “job?” She said, “further studies?” Yes, I want to. But you know how life is hard nowadays. I want to go study in another art school outside the country to get a second degree or masters or whatever you call that. I just love education. I love to learn. But she said, that she thinks I can do it. And she will continue to believe in me. She’s going to the U.S. later this year to I think, study again. She’s in Singapore right now, studying as an Economics major. How cool is that? She said she’ll help me get financial support when I really want to and I’m serious about it. And last night, I searched for the top art schools in the U.S. and I looked into The Art Institute of California and the Academy of Art University. Those are both in California, Los Angeles and California respectively. But after much surfing in both websites, I decided that I want to go to the Academy of Art University! LOLZ. But what the hell, can I ever do that? I was so overwhelmed last night when I saw all that. I don’t know though. It’s not a crime to dream, is it? Dream on, Cha. Dream on.

Anyway, that’s about it. Thanks for everyone who commented on my layout and previous blog post! Much loves.

An-April-19-blog-post

IT’S OFFICIALLY VACATION TIME FOR ME!

Been a long long time since I went online. For almost like a month I think? So I have here a little run through of what’s happened in my life for the past month:

1. We moved in to our new house in Fairview. It may be far from my school, but heck, who cares? I’m gonna make sure my sacrifices will be all worth it. Glad I’m not moving in to a new school!

2. Since we moved in to our new house, we have had delicious foods! ) As in, seriously! I have noticed that even before but my dad said it just yesterday. Thank God for the blessings!

3. Since we moved in to our new house, our internet’s bummed so I wasn’t able to go online. SMARTBRO sucks. SMARTBROken. Lol. When our account expires, we’ll surely gonna change our connection. We should.

4. Frosh year is over! Oh yes! I’m not a frosh anymore but a sophomore! Can you believe that? Cliche as it may sound but time flies by really fast. It’s so overwhelming. So many things to do, so little time. But it would help me be responsible in managing with my time, right?

5. I passed all my subjects this term! THANK GOD! I THANK GOD SO MUCH 100x!!! You know, I was worried a hell lot about my grades in two subjects. Business Math was okay until our prof told us our standings before our final exams. I had to get half of my final exam to pass! Our Final exam only had 2 questions, all worth #(forgot) points.

And my World Literature class, well I was so worried about this. In her[my prof] class, I don’t really participate. I wasn’t active. And to top off, I was always late. I knew I had a low midterm grade that I didn’t know. So I really studied for her final exam. It was the last resort I had to prove to her that I deserve a passing grade, at least. I knew I didn’t give my best this term, especially in her class. I had to prove to her that I am so much better than what she thinks. Because I know I am. I just didn’t exert much effort to make her see that, and as well as in my other subjects. I knew I wasn’t in my best form. I guess I had to be in the danger zone first to make me realize how I was and how I did. I should have done my part at the start of the term, but I didn’t. I ultimately learned the hard way.

And because of that, I ultimately promised myself that I will do much much better next time. Better than what I had been, better than what I am. I hope I will be able to do that, and not just eat my words at the end of the term, again asking God for another chance to make things right. No, I hope not. God might not give me another chance to do so because I knew I had the chance already and didn’t use it well.

6. GRADES GRADES GRADES.
COMSK2x – 3.0 Our Project Plan proposal presentation went really well and I worked hard on my video resume.
PETWODA – 3.0 Heck, why the hell my grade is 3.0? It’s the only P.E. class yet that I wasn’t able to get a 4.0! To think it was Dance! WTF? I wasn’t able to get it myself so I wasn’t able to question her about it. Anyway, it’s fine. Well, no it isn’t. I believe I deserve more than a 3.0, maybe a 3.5 will do. But I don’t know.
PHILOMA – 2.5 Well I guess I deserve this grade. Hooray for one PHILOMA prof for the cheats! I guess everyone knew the answers for the matching type and true or false(alternate answers).
RECONSE – 3.5 WHOA! I was surprised to know that I got 3.5 for this subject. Not that I don’t deserve it, I just didn’t expect to get this grade. I got 3.0 for the midterms and I managed to get this. How cool was that? )
FILIP13 – 2.5 It’s kinda okay. I got a 3.0 for the midterms and I guess I deserve this one. Maybe I didn’t get a high score in my final exams.
BMAT2x- 2.0! That would be equal to 80-84. Would you believe mehnnn?! I was just praying for a 1.0! A passing grade! But I got a 2.0 instead! How ultimately cool was that man? )
WORLITE- 1.5 Okay, I am happy that I got this grade at least! I got a missed call from my prof and that meant that I need to pass a poster-like work to pull up my grade. I will make an artwork about one story we discussed and how I understood it in class. A catchy by-line is required too, just like what we did in our poster activity in class. I had it printed on A4 and had it laminated. My friends were miss called too. We were really scared. I rushed the poster I did ’cause my prof called at around 12:30-1:00-ish in the morning and I was already asleep then. I woke up at 10:30am! And my phone was bombarded with my friends’ text messages. I called them and they were already at school. So I made the poster for like 2 hours and arrived at school at around 3pm. So yeah, we waited for like an hour because our prof wasn’t there yet. I thought I’m going to be there for only 30 minutes but add an hour on that, so my brothers waited for me at McDo for about 1 and a half hour. Oopsie. ) My prof told me that I passed the final exam and told me that maybe I studied for the exam ) Well I did, really. So yeah. Here’s my work btw.

Again, it’s a vector. The first vector is recycled. The second and third one, well, I got their pictures from my brother’s wedding. LOL. I’ve been addicted to doing vectors lately. I did it for only two hours ’cause I was rushing so it’s not so good.

7. My dad’s birthday is coming up! It’s on Wednesday. It turns out that Ate Lhyn[my cousin's wife] and Ate Gem’s[family friend] daughter is also celebrating their birthday on the same day! So we’re gonna celebrate it here in our new home! That would be really fun! First birthday on our new house. The house blessing will be on that day too. I’m gonna post a lot of pictures if I can take a lot.

8. NEW LAYOUT! How do you like it?

So that’s it.

I missed a lot in the web world and as well as in the blogosphere. I missed reading your blogs! I’m surely going to keep up with everything. Ohyay.

Not-so-holy-week.

Last night was the most FUNNEST night I ever had since I don’t know when! SRSLY! It was an unexpected get-together, or night out as you may call it.

But anyway, I’m going to start off with my day. First, Mom, Dad and I went to Fairview to check when we can already move some things in the house. Probably, by Monday we can start moving things already since maybe by that time, some parts of the house are already fixed. They said we should already be there on the 31st. I am soo excited! Yep, I am excited now. Haha. Man, it’s a lot of work! I saw my room too! It’s bigger than my room now. Hooray! I can’t wait to decorate and design it, lol. I hope they would allow me to paint it with the color I want to. The only thing I can say about the house is, WOW. I can now imagine the Christmas Party we could have there. We can run around for the relay game. ) Sobrang init din kahapon, grabe. Mabaliw na yata ako dun. Lakad lang ako ng lakad, paikot-ikot. Hinintay pa kasi namin si kuya Raymond kasama si Ate Therese. When they came, we toured them around the house. Then after, we went to San Benissa to check out Ate Therese’s condo unit. We just saw the model unit since the way to her building is still under construction. Ang ganda sobra sa San Benissa! Spanish-inspired nga. I felt like I was in Spain! SRSLYYYY! It was a cute community. Haha, cute. ) Parang American way of living. Bumili pa kami ng inumin since sobrang uhaw na kami at napakain pa tuloy ng La Paz Batchoy. Haha. We left around 6-ish.

Tapos, napag-alaman kong pupunta pala sila Kuya sa SM para manood ng sine. Ayun, napasama tuloy ako. We watched Meet the Spartans. Laugh trip. Pero di ko masyado nagustuhan na as in super. Di namin naabutan yung first 20 minutes kasi kumain pa kami sa Pizza Hut. But it wasn’t the real reason though. Ate Therese and I went to the comfort room which was on the 3rd floor. After, we saw this big black circle and we got curious what’s it for. It was asking which is faster to go down, 25-cents, 1-peso or 5-peso. LOL. Promise, sinasayang lang nila ang pera niyo. ) 5-peso was fastest. LOL. Parang sira lang. Law of gravity chuva daw, ngek. ) Because of that, we were late. ) So then, we left SM at 10-ish.

Kuya Jeff invited Ate Therese and Kuya to go to their gig at Mugen, Metrowalk even before we got at SM. I think we weren’t supposed to go at Mugen though, but my brother got pissed about something that I don’t know what. So we went. I was like, WHAT?! ) I was wearing a shirt, capri pants and slippers. It was really unexpected. I said, if I would have known that they were going there, I wouldn’t come. But after everything, I take that back. I KNEW I SHOULD BE THERE. ) I would definitely miss the half of my 2008 if I didn’t go!

Sobrang sobrang fun talaga! Lahat kami parang 1st time ulit to go in a bar(with bands ah) after we don’t know when. Ako siguro nung… basta di ko na matandaan, alam ko simula nung wala na sila kuya. I was surprised that Kuya Carlos was there with them too. Haha. So lahat kaming magkakapatid nandun(except for Kuya Ian of course, ’cause he’s in Davao). Wudyubeliv. Along with, Ate Gem, Ate Lhyn, Kuya Sonny and Kuya Ces. So there were 8 of us.

Sa bands kasi, usually 3rd set sila nagpapa-jam. Laging sinasabi ni Kuya Jeff na may magj-jam from Pure Instinct simula pa nung 1st at 2nd set nila. Syempre, na-excite naman kaming lahat kasi sobrang na-miss namin silang mag-perform! Sinasabi ko lagi kay Ate Therese during that time, “Nakakamiss yung ganito.” Kasi laging sila(Pure Instinct) ang pinapanood namin ‘pag lumalabas. Ngayon, sila na ang kasama namin pag nanonood.. ng ibang banda.

Third set came and the jamming started. OHYE. Nung tinawag na si Kuya Amon to play the guitar, and another guy, a Korean, to play the bass, we were all like screaming our lungs out! SOBRA. Lalo naman nung nag-perform na si Kuya. TALAGA NAMAN MEHN. Hataw! They played Play that Funky Music. OMG GRABE TALAGA. FANS CLUB KAMI! ) After, sigawan talaga! Si Ate Therese ang haba ng hair. Hahaha. Sabi naman ni Kuya Amon, napansin daw niya nung adlib na, bumagal daw siya. Taeng bumagal yan, ayos nga yung pag-perform niya dun. Bumagal pa ang kamay niya sa lagay na yun. Sayang hindi niya ginawa yung exhibition na ginagawa nila ni kuya Ian, yung ilalagay sa likod yung gitara. IDOL TALAGA! It would have been better though if both of them were there, but of course it’s not possible.

Akala namin yun na, tapos na, na si kuya Amon lang ang magj-jam. Pero syempre I was hoping na magj-jam pa si Kuya Sonny at Kuya Carlos. When the band said na one more jammer to go, sumigaw si ate Therese, “SONNY! CARLOS!”. Sabi ni Kuya Jeff, “Oo, two more pa pala.” Sigawan kameeee. ) Hahaha. Tapos nung tinawag na sila, we were telling them, “Go na! Goooo!” E si Kuya Sonny medyo wala na sa katinuan, haha. Hindi naman, kaya naman, sabog lang siya. )

Pag-akyat nila ng stage, kwento nila kuya, di daw nila alam anong song yung ip-perform nila, tapos nagulat na lang sila na Bring Me to Life yun. Haha. Edi go. SOBRANG sigaw kami ng sigaw dun! Ang ingay namin! Kami yung pinaka-maingay. Haha. Tapos si Ate Therese sumisigaw, “Magbalikan na kayo! Wala na akong gimik!” ) Totoo naman e, simula nung wala na sila, hindi na talaga nakakalabas. Sobrang tuwang-tuwa at masayang-masaya ako after. Nag-hug pa nga sila pagtapos e. Aw. Sayang hindi kumpleto. Pero okay lang, sobrang masaya naman kasi after how many months, nakita namin sila ulit mag-perform! Si Kuya Jeff nga, hindi siya kasama sa song, nakaupo lang sa tabi, di niya napigilang mapatayo at pumunta rin ng stage e. At some point, I knew they will miss what they were doing for almost 12 years of their lives. And we, also missed them. Sayang kasi talaga. They’re still young and they’re great at what they do. And with just that, everything fell apart. It was really really sad. I had a hard time accepting that ’cause all my life(srsly!), I’ve been used to seeing them perform a lot. They were my idols. I seriously don’t know how they do it, they’re really really good. And I’m not telling this because they’re my brothers/cousins. It’s because they really are good. Sobrang proud ako tuwing nakikita ko silang mag-perform. Sabi nga ni Kuya Sonny nun, “Nasa dugo natin yan ‘tol”. Every Wednesday tumutugtog sila Kuya Jeff dun. Btw, Kuya Jeff is my brother’s ex-bandmate and Kuya Amon’s high school friend, bestfriend. Sabi nila, dapat daw every Wednesday ganun. Then kami yung Wednesday group. ) Haha.

I can’t wait to see them perform again. I plan to make them perform on my debut next year, if ever possible. I would ultimately love that. And at last, kagabi rin! NAKITA KO NA RIN SUMAYAW SI KUYA CARLOS! ) WAHAHAHA. ) After the jamming kasi, the band played dance songs. Una, nakaupo pa si kuya dun, then I don’t remember sinong humila sa kanya para tumayo, then ayun, napasayaw na rin. OHYE. ) Hahaha. Ang saya, lahat kami sumasayaw nun. Since walang dance floor, dun sa may table. Haha. Nakahilera kami dun na para bang kami lang yung tao. We went home at around 3 to 4-ish. Sumabay ako kila Kuya Ces since andun si Kuya Carlos, they dropped us off at Quezon Ave. since his car was there, wala kasi siyang kasama mag-drive pauwi so ako na lang. Nag-drive thru pa kami sa jollibee. When we got home, mom and dad was awake. ) Tapos ayun, nagkwentuhan kami sa kwarto nila while eating. I love those moments, it’s priceless. These moments are priceless.

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Btw, thanks for all your comments guys. 3 and a half years lang dun, tri-sem kasi. Mag-2nd year na siya e, konti na lang graduate na.” And I was telling my mom when we were in the house, “Napalayo naman ako.” She said, “Okay lang, kelangan lang maaga gumising.” So yeah. YEEE.

Happy and not.

I still can’t get over this.

Badtrip ako at masaya at the same time.

Bakit?
Let’s start with the happy thought.

Happy because I got to hang out with my high school barkada again! We were together for almost like the whole day it was really fun! I last saw AJ during our high school batch reunion last July; Niki and Francel, 2 months ago; and Jhem, well, we study in the same school but I rarely see her but still at least, I see her. Lol. I last saw her on the first week of third term. Anyway, I can always see her if I want to. But not really hang out and talk a lot.

We ate at Teriyaki Boy for lunch which is around quarter to 2pm. Yeah. Haha. I’m kind of getting used to strolling around the mall alone, I have always done that since I got to college. And I wasn’t really really familiar around TriNoMa so I kind of got lost. Haha. I forgot where National Bookstore was! And they said they’ll just meet me there. And as usual, I was late for like an hour, which I hate. You know, I hate being late because for almost like my whole life, I’ve been always late. And I know how it feels like to be waiting, ALOT.

Then after, we bought movie tickets to P.S. I love you. Then we went to have a studio picture! Hahaha. Hindi halata na di kami mahilig magpicture at magpose. We’re not vain people. ) We have to wait for 20 or 30 minutes to have the picture developed so we decided to have coffee. Starbucks was full, as usual. So we went to Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf instead.

There, we reminisced about high school. Browsed old pictures and some videos we had. Gosh, good times! We were all laughing so hard! We talked about college, where our batchmates went, what courses they are taking up, crushes, relationships, college friends, what have we been up to, our courses, and other stuff. And our day together isn’t complete pag hindi kami nanlalait ng tao. LOL. So mean, right? But that’s how we are. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not like that though. It’s just that when I’m with them, I can’t help it because I gotta admit, sometimes oftentimes, I agree with them. LOL. And syempre, hindi nawawala ang chikahan. Ang aking mga kaibigan ay napaka-updated sa mga bagay-bagay.

It’s those moments that I would always want to treasure. I suggested that every month, we should get together. And they all agreed. Of course who wouldn’t right? Hehe. Just for catching up and hanging out. It’s priceless.

Then we went to get our picture. Hehe. It’s so cute! )

So malapit na kami umuwi and I texted my mom na magpapasundo na ko. But AJ asked us to accompany her to her house because she’s not used to commuting alone. Now that she and her bf broke up, wala nang magddrive sakanya. Haha. E sakto, malapit na kami sa bahay ni AJ, andun na sila Mommy nag-aantay sa binabaan ko nung hinatid nila ako. SHET. I swear, never akong kinabahan ng ganun kanina. I don’t know why. I was so worried. So my mom called me again and asked me where I was and her voice sounded like she was pissed off. Even my brother shouted at me on the phone while he was driving. Sucks. I was so worried that I’ll get caught. Pero diba, wala naman akong ginagawang masama. Hinatid lang namin si AJ. Only that, hindi ako nakapagpaalam. Kaya siguro I was worried.

Francel: I feel you, Cha. Ganyan din ako nun.
Francel: Pero Cha bakit ganun? Diba nung high school lagi kang pinapayagan? Tapos ngayong college parang mahigpit sayo?
Nikita: Ako rin e, kung kelan nag-18 ako saka naging mahigpit.
Cha: Ewan ko nga e. Hindi pa ako kinabahan ng ganito dati. Siguro kasi, hindi nila alam kaya ganun. *******! Shet. *panicking*

I’m glad they all helped me. I was so worried na magsabay yung taxi at sasakyan namin. Thank God, hindi.

Badtrip lang ako kasi pag ako, kaya kong maghintay ng dalawang oras para sa kanila. Kahit umalis na lahat ng tao sa paligid ko, at nadaanan na ako ng 1000+ na sasakyan at mga tao, ayos lang kahit magmukha akong tanga na walang ginagawa at kausap. Pag sila, nagagalit sila kahit mga 30 minutes lang ang pagkalate ko. Hindi ko naman siguro pwedeng ipagcompare talaga kasi mas bata ako kesa sa kanila dba?

Masama lang talaga loob ko pag ganun. Late ka lang, kahit sinasabi nila ng pabiro alam mong may something dun sa sinasabi nila.

Ako pag nalalate ako at sila ang dahilan, hindi ko naman sila masisi. Pag late ako dahil matagal ako, nagagalit sila. Malabo di ba? Bakit ang unfair?

Alam kong mali ipagcompare kasi sobrang iba sila sakin. Pero pag sila iniintindi ko, sana ganun din sila sa akin. Kahit alam kong mas swerte ako compared sa iba dahil hindi nila ako sinisigawan at sinasaktan physically, minsan nasasaktan nila ako emotionally. Kahit little ways lang, pero sensitibo akong tao e, may mga bagay na sobrang naaapektuhan ako kahit maliit lang na bagay.

Yun lang talaga. Madali akong umintindi. Pero sana ganun din sila sakin. Sana kahit papano sa unfair na takbo ng buhay, kahit konti naman maging fair sila. Sobrang masama lang talaga ang loob ko pag ganun. Lagi na kasing nangyayari eh.

Ang nakapagtataka pa, bakit nung high school hindi sila masyadong mahigpit when in fact, dapat dun ka mas mahigpit dba? Pero ngayong college, parang mas mahigpit at nagmamadali sila.

I mean, I can take care of myself. They just won’t let me. I can do things by myself. They just won’t let me. And worse, I feel that they don’t believe in what I can do. I can do whatever I want to do with all limitations. They just won’t let me, with or without limitations. I feel like I am being so babied. Is it because I am the only girl? I am turning 17, gosh! I will be legal the next year! It makes me feel bad that they’re somehow depriving me of feeling the complete real world. They have brought me up really well and I know that I know what is wrong from what is right. They have to let me make mistakes and so I will let them enter my world. I don’t know why it is hard for them to let me go. I don’t know why it is that I feel they don’t want me to grow up yet.

It’s not something they say to me directly, but that’s how I feel. I don’t want to be treated so much as a princess because I’m not. I don’t want to get used to that because I know I can do things but because they won’t allow me, I feel that I can’t do it. Gets?

I always say to my brother that time flies by fast. And he always reply, “Bakit ka ba nagmamadali?” The thing is, I’m not. It’s just the way the reality and life goes. It is fast-paced and you can’t let yourself be left out. You have to move on. Kasi pag napag-iwanan ka nang sobra, mahirap na mag-keep up. Ewan ko, minsan ganun eh. Pero hindi ko naman sinasabi na dapat nagmamadali ka. I’m not. It’s just that you can’t let life pass you by without you living it. Right?

Haay, basta. Masama pa rin ang loob ko kahit sobrang babaw niyan. Pero, ako ‘to eh.

Is it you?

No I’m not referring to someone. I just love this song. It seems like it wrote what I am looking for.

I’m looking for a lover not a friend
Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to
I’m looking for someone who won’t pretend
Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you

And I’m looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows the way
The way I like to have it my way
And I’m looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares
Thinking your the one that I’ve been waiting for

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you’re the one I’ve been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you’re the one I’ve been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? (Could you be?)
Could you be the one I need?

I’m looking for someone to share my pain (Uh)
Someone who I can run to, who would stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with trough the night
Someone who I can trust who’s heart is right
And I’m looking for someone

And I’m looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows the way
The way I like to have it my way
And I’m looking for someone who takes me there,
Want to share, shows he cares
Thinking your the one that I’ve been waiting for

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you’re the one I’ve been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

Take for grant
How much I care (How much I care)
And appreciates that I’m there
Someone who listens
And someone I can call who isn’t afraid of thought to share

-Is it you by Cassie

I also love Whatever it takes by Lifehouse.

[not the whole song]

She said if we’re gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don’t hide the broken parts that I need to see
She said like it or not it’s the way it’s gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me

I know you deserve much better
Remember the time I told you the way that I felt
And that I’d be lost without you and never find myself
Let’s hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I’ll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what’s at stake
I know that I’ve let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I’ll keep us together
Whatever it takes

*sigh*
I’ll keep waiting for that someone.
But I have come to make this as my New Year’s Resolution: No time for love.
Hahaha. Would you believe? Oh yeah.
At least for now.

Anyway, it’s not bad to think of your dream person or the one for you, right?
Masaya naman maging single. And I am a proud NBSB¹ kasi medyo konti na lang kami. Nyahaha. At least walang sakit sa ulo. Mga walanghiya. Haha.

But still, I’m a sucker for romantic comedies, love stories and Koreanovelas. My all-time favorite movies are A Walk to Remember, The Notebook, Sassy Girl, and If Only. These movies never fail to make me cry no matter how many times I watch it. She’s the Man never fails to make me laugh really hard and make me feel err, kilig. Hahaha. And Channing Tatum is hot! Damnit. Hahaha. In Koreanovelas, I love Full House, Princess Hours, Spring Waltz, My Girl and The 1st Shop of Coffee Prince. May mga marerecommend pa ba kayong mga ganyang klase na movies at koreanovelas? )

¹ No boyfriend since birth. ;p

Blast from the past: 2007.

88 THINGS I DID ON 2007. Beware, this is uber long.

1. January 7, 2007: ACET Results was released online. I wasn’t accepted. One dream school down.
2. January 13, 2007 Saturday: We made our Economics project. Why is this extraordinary? Well, we went to my high school crush’s¹ house and interviewed his dad for our project. He went with us to go to their office then my barkada-slash-groupmates insisted that he will be the one to drive my ka-barkada’s car. Then, I was the last one to get into the car then the next thing I know, they were all sitted at the back. I had no choice but to sit in the front passenger seat. GREAT. LOL. Then my ka-barkada who is his neighbor asked him to go with us to Starbucks, Convergy’s. But this time, I sitted at the back. Nakakahiya na kasi yun, grabe! Natatandaan siguro talaga ako nun by face. HAHAHA. Walanghiya. Anyway, I still remember, we ordered a Grande Caramel Frappucino. LOL.
3. January 17, 2007: Had our National Career Assessment Exam.
4. January 22, 2007: UPCAT Results were released. This was a super sad day for me. Two dream schools down.
5. January 26, 2007: USTET Results were released. I passed but was on Academic Placement. So I needed to go to the UST-OFAD on March 3 for the printout of the list of courses I qualified for.
6. February 2, 2007: Teacher’s Day organized by the Student Council. I made the certificates to be given to the teachers. Yey!
7. February 6-12, 2007: Swing practice for Prom. Haha. I miss this. I miss dancing! Lol. What I love about dance practices is that we get to be excused for our classes. Nyahaha.
8. February 9, 2007: Student Council assistance for Mathrix, a math quiz bee organized by our school. This was really a great experience! I swear!
9. February 10, 2007: Student Council assistance for MTAP. This was a great experience too! Alala ko merong cute guy from Philadelphia High School dun e, senior high din. Hahaha. We were at our mini-theater and I was operating the laptop and I said to the one watching over their team, “Ui, cute yung nasa kanan.” HAHAHA. Then she said, “Onga eh, kaya kanina pa ako nakatingin sakaniya e. At least may rason ako. Hahaha.”
10. February 14, 2007: Valentine’s Day booths organized by the Student Council. This was fun but at the same time hard. I was assigned at the main registration booth and grabe super gulo ng mga tao especially the first and second years! Haha.
11. February 19, 2007: Two things happened this day. First, we had our JS Prom at Shangrila Edsa. Second, the DLS-CSB Entrance Exam results were released. And I passed. Masaya akong nakapasa ako nun pero alam ko kasi na hindi ako ditto mag-aaral so malungkot din.
12. February 26, 2007: Had my Talumpati for our Filipino subject.
13. February 28, 2007: We performed our Filipino play(El Filibusterismo), ny last high school play. Lol.
14. March 1 and 2, 2007: School Foundation day. This was the worst foundation day ever! We spell it, B-O-R-I-N-G. There were no rides, no tiangges, no programs at all! Grrrr.
15. March 3, 2007: I went to UST-OFAD for the printout of list of courses I qualified for. Since I didn’t pass my talent test, I was on Academic Placement. So instead they gave me a 4-page list of the courses I got in to. I was happy though because I was qualified to be in Architecture, Engineering, Biology, Math, Physics, Pharmacy, Commerce, and the list goes on. So pag pumili ako dun, wait-listed na ako. Anyway, I never thought I could be qualified with those courses but what the hell? That’s way too near my preferred course which is Fine Arts. GREAT. I chose Commerce and Information Technology because I had no choice but to choose. Nge, haha.
16. March 8, 2007: We performed our music project. Not sure about the date though. Anyway, each group composed a song, preferably a graduation song for us to sing on our Graduation day, and then our music teacher will pick one song from the 3 sections. Too bad our song wasn’t picked but our grad song was picked from our section and that’s enough for me.
17. March 17, 2007: This started it all. I realized and I knew I had to choose. I got in to two colleges. Not my dream colleges but at least, I got in. I had a choice where to go. One was nearer from where we live and is a university but I didn’t get in to my course choices and the second was way too far from where we live, tuition is expensive, runs on a trimester basis but the one where my heart really is. I was already thinking so hard what to choose. I never thought how I managed to think about that after gazillions of school work I had to do.

Anyway, this date was the deadline for Academic Placement slips for UST. I was thinking so hard what I will choose as instead of Fine Arts and Communication Arts because I knew they really wanted me to go to UST. So yeah, I chose I.T. and Commerce. I want to share what was written on my planner that day: There are choices ahead which could change your life. Unfortunately, there aren’t any crystal balls to provide the answers, telling you where to go or what to do. But it is true that centuries of wisdom have never improved on this advice: Listen to your heart. I have a choice. But I am afraid. Does the heart ever go wrong? I know, it’s so much drama. But hey, it’s me. Mas maganda na yung pag-isipan ng mabuti kesa sa sumalang sa kolehiyo at kumuha ng mga kursong hindi mo gusto at hindi ka sigurado, di ba?

18. March 19, 2007: This was the very day I told my brother, “Kuya, gusto ko sa Benilde. *laughs*” I was supposed to just say it jokingly. Basta, to just say it. But what the hell man, I broke down. I cried really really hard. I guess this was the first time I cried on my brother about some serious things. He said, “Sandali lang, tatawagin ko si Kuya Junjun.” And I insisted not to. I said, “Kuya waggg! Sara mo yung door!” I didn’t want anyone to see me cry like that. Takot ako at nahihiya. But he already called my 2^nd eldest brother. So he said to me, “Bat ka umiiyak?” Tapos tumawa kami. I was trying hard not to cry. Sobrang pinipigilan ko na yung iyak ko nun. Yeah, silly right? Crying just because of that. But that’s just me, I’m really sentimental. Then he asked my brother, “Ba’t to umiiyak? Inaway mo?” Hahaha. Then yun, my bro told the whole story. And he was asking me questions. Basta all I remember was I was crying really hard and I was super touched because they really supported me. They got my back. Then my 2^nd eldest brother told me, “Sabihin natin kila mommy bukas yan. Wag ka na umiyak.” Then we went downstairs because we ate some icecream. Pampalamig daw ng ulo. Then while we were leaving the room, our eldest brother came out from his room and saw me. He said, “Oh, bakit ‘to umiiyak? Ano nangyari?” My brother told him, “Destiny, ‘tol.” Hahaha. The next day, my mom and dad knew about it. And yeah, I guess they thought really hard about it. I don’t know but it took about a month to tell that they agreed that I go to Benilde. My dad was the first one who agreed among all of them. My mom was just silent about it. My brothers didn’t want me to because they knew they will be the one who will drive me to school since they won’t allow me to commute and they know that Taft is reallyyyy far. When I was thinking and deciding if I will say to them where I want to go, I really considered everything: the distance, the expenses, my family’s feelings and etcetera. I told it to a family friend and she said, “Don’t make distance a hindrance to your dreams. Tingnan mo ako, I really wanted to take up Economics but I was rejected by a lot of schools there. But I never gave up. So I’m here at Singapore. And 3 or 4 years of driving you to school won’t hurt your brothers, won’t it?” That wasn’t the exact words she said but it was somewhat like that. I am really thankful I have these people around me and I am proud of myself for fighting for my dreams.
19. March 21, 2007: News breakout: our school’s terminating its operation. It was a sad day for the whole OLGM community.
20. March 22, 2007: Bomb squad at our school. Why? Well, if you have heard of the news, may sumabog sa school namin na pill box. Hahaha. We thought that it was some effect that the school planned since it planned to close, graceful exit kumbaga. Hahaha. Magsasara na nga, sasabog pa. We had a joke about this. Before a lot of us were saying, “Ipasara ang OLGM! Pasabugin ang OLGM!” So ayun nga, nagsara nga. Sumabog pa. LOL. This was also a dramatic day for the 4^th year teachers, the whole faculty and fourth year students. A long story but anyway, we were so pasaway during our graduation practice and our teacher got pissed off at us. Napakahabang sermon yun! Pero sobrang touching and totoo naman. We realized our mistakes and the whole senior batch went outside the faculty and we sang our graduation song to them. Sobrang deadma sila. Pero super cry din kaming lahat pati na rin sila. Hay.
21. March 30, 2007: The day I graduated from high school, said goodbye to the best years of my life, my teachers, and my super friends. Batch 2007, last batch of OLGM and batch “State your name!” Haha. Magulo ‘tong graduation na ‘to. Pero super cry! The OLGM Alumni was there and the lower batches. Sobrang lungkot neto. Parang almost one hour kami umiiyak sa stage. Hahaha.
22. April 13, 2007: Nalaman kong accepted ako sa Commerce. Hindi ko na inalam kung accepted ako sa I.T. kasi hindi namin mahanap kung saan nakalagay yung mga wait-list dun.
23. April 15, 2007: Outreach with 4-Faith at Angono, Rizal. This was really a heart-warming experience. I felt really good after this day. It was nice seeing my superfriends again. There were 8 4^th year faith people and some from the NorthView chapter of Tau Gamma Phi. For us 4-Faithers, we organized this outreach because our graduation was a blessing that we want to share with people. I met new people this day. We sung and danced with the youth members of the Christian Church Ms. Adah was part of. I really felt God that day. I felt so blessed! I was really thankful that I have those people around me.
24. April 17, 2007: We went to Benilde. We were just supposed to inquire about the tuition fee but my mom asked me, “Sigurado ka na ditto? Wala nang urungan ah?” I said smiling, “Oo.” So yun, unexpected confirmation. Haha. I was really happy. Hay grabe.
25. May 2, 2007: CSB Enrollment for MMA Students! I was like, oh no! Magc-college na ko! Hahaha. Naalala ko nakita ko yung dalawa kong blockmates nung day na yun pero syempre hindi ko pa alam na blockmates ko sila.
26. May 3, 2007: Went back to CSB for ID Picture. Sobrang haba ng pila nung enrollment mismo e.
27. May 10, 2007: Went to Davao.
28. May 12, 2007: Went to Laugh Tough at The Venue Compound then my cousin, his wife and my brother’s girlfriend then but now his wife fetched me to go to Yellow Haus (coffee shop).
29. May 22, 2007: I went back to Manila. Just me, myself and I. First time kong sumakay ng eroplano na ako lang mag-isa! Woo-hoo! Achievement! Haha.
30. May 23, 2007: SDA Frosh Orientation. This was the first time I met my blockmates and some of my friends. Fun day and a great experience! I felt proud being officially a Benildean. Ohyea.
31. May 27, 2007: 16^th birthday ko! First time to go to Trinoma and ate at Mangan.
32. May 28, 2007: DLS-CSB start of classes. Nice 1^st college day!
33. June 8, 2007: Frosh Solidarity Night. First time to see Itchyworms, Callalily and Kjwan live. Cooliooo.
34. June 21, 2007: First Makati Thursday after class. We went to my blockmate’s condo at Kingswood for our POLIGOV Project. Most of my first term Thursday after classes was spent at Makati. And most of the time, naiiwan akong mag-isa dahil inaantay ko ang sundo ko so humahangouts nalang ako sa Mcdo dun. Haha.
35. June 24, 2007: Mrs. Neri Mendoza, our 2^nd year math teacher, died of cancer.
36. June 26, 2007: Camae and I went to UST kasi yun yung meeting place ng lahat ng pupunta sa burol ni Mrs. Neri. Grabe pa nun, suot ko yung jogging pants ng Benilde. Ang saya saya. Hahaha. So we went to Dulce Funeral Homes at Abad Santos with 7 of my batchmates. This day was one hell of an adventure ride on our way home! Hahaha. We were all girls and the 2 guys who were supposed to go with us backed out. Great, man! Lahat na yata ng polusyon napunta na sa’min. If not for our 2 batchmates, we would probably be lost already. Kung san-san kami napunta. Sobrang stressful pero fun day.
37. July 6, 2007: Went to CCP Little Theater to watch our NATSCA prof’s play, Teatro Porvenir. We went to Harbour Square after the play then my whole family(haha) fetched me from there and we went to eat at Seaside.
38. July 7, 2007: UAAP Opening. Didn’t go but I was at Gateway shooting our Filipino project. I saw a lot of OLGM people during this day. So happy!
39. July 12, 2007: 1^st mall out with DV6 at Robinson’s Manila.
40. July 16, 2007: Pagtuklas Recollection with DV6. And I saw the asshole while I was on my way home. Great, of all of my batchmates, I saw the asshole. Haha. I texted him that I saw him and he asked where I saw him, I said, “Sa may Pegasus.” Hahahaha! It was true! He was outside waiting for an FX or something.
41. July 17, 2007: 2^nd time to ride the MRT and LRT. I went to Trinoma with Cerisse and saw Sam C., Mikee Lee, and Patricia Evangelista. Hahaha. Then guess what? I saw the asshole again! WTH man! Of all people I know! I was sure he saw me but ayun, deadma. Ang gago talaga ever. Haha. Anyway, pinatawad ko na yun. Wala na yun. Karamihan sa inyo hindi alam ang kwento kasi karamihan senyo new readers and nangyari yun nung 2005 pa. ;p
42. July 19, 2007: Went to G4 with DV6, Timezone-ing and I rode the MRT by myself! First time! Proud ako. Hahaha. Wala pa sa family naming ang nakasakay ng MRT at LRT. Haha.
43. July 20, 2007: Campus Stopover ’07. Moonstar 88, Imago, Sandwich, Blue Ketchup, etc etc.
44. July 28, 2007: OLGM Reunion batch 07 at Trinoma.
45. August 3-6, 2007: Happy and felt something different. Hahaha. But I hated to feel it first.
46. August 11, 2007: Trinoma with a batchmate-slash-schoolmate, a friend and his bestfriend. I met a new friend this day.
47. August 15, 2007: Ang di dapat sinabi ay sinabi. I told someone I like him. WAHAHAHA. Silly. But I am proud now though. Never thought I could have that courage. LOL.
48. The rest of the first term went and the term break comes in! Ohyea. Haha. Madami pa ‘to!
49. September 5, 2007: Went to GenSan.
50. September 6, 2007: Course Card Distribution. I wasn’t able to go so I had someone get it for me. Panira yung dalawang 2.0 ko. Walanghiya talaga. Hindi ko matanggap Bibstud grade ko nun. A busy day for me.
51. September 7, 2007: The day I decided to let go. Yak. Hahaha. Thanks sa Friendster. Walanghiya. Hanged out at KCC Mall again, since I got to GenSan. I always stayed at a coffee shop there named Coffee Dreamz.
52. September 8, 2007: Stayed at our hotel room since minors weren’t allowed at the Winston event. I watched a 20-in-1 Tagalog Movie DVD. Hahaha. I watched Happy Hearts, Ang cute ng ina mo, The Promise, and You are the One. Haha.
53. September 9, 2007: Mom and Dad’s anniversary. We went to Davao. Ate at Buffet Palace. I sent a group message to my super friends and so they knew my ka-dramahan. LOL.
54. Sept. 10, 2007: Yung sign.
55. September 12, 2007: Start of 2^nd term. Was absent for about a week.
56. September 18, 2007: Kuya Ian and Ate Liza’s wedding at Sunny Point, Ma-a, Davao City.
57. September 19, 2007: Went back to Manila. Went to my last class then went to SDA with two friends.
58. September 23, 2007: It said, “..eto yung start ng week na super sakit.” Gosh, grabe yun ah. Hahaha. Kadramahan talaga. Mygally.
59. September 26, 2007: Watched Resident Evil Extinction at Rob. Manila with Cerisse, CJ, Sofia and Pem. Watched it again at Trinoma with Kuya Ian and Ate Liza. Had my first Havs, ate Liza bought it for me. Waha.
60. September 29, 2007: Uncle Arthur’s birthday. Had some get together at our house then went to The Library, Malate. ROFL!!! First time ko sa ganun. Mygally. Hahaha.
61. September 30, 2007: Kuya Raymond’s Birthday. Went to Cloud 9, Antipolo.
62. October 4, 2007: My first UAAP game. Watched the UE vs. DLSU Championships Game 1 with Cerisse, CJ, Kevin C., Krystle, Marcell, Gerald, Joseph and Pam.
63. The rest of October went full of school works. November was spent full of late-night Saturday parties and bad shots (feeling ko lang. Haha.)
64. November 3, 2007: Eena’s debut at Toyz Café, Makati. Since kakatapos lang ng Halloween nun, costume party siya.
65. November 14, 2007: Watched One More Chance with DV6 at Rob. Manila. Went to the Tech Project for ORDEV-B at SDA.
66. November 16, 2007: This is Art exhibit at SDA Bldg. Naiwan akong almost mag-isa. Umalis na karamihan ng ka-block ko nun. Pero super cool neto Cocktail party siya so ayun, may food nga, takaw ng mga kablock ko. Hahaha. May art exhibit, freedom wall, bands, and the last part was all film showing. Sobrang proud to be Benilde.
67. November 17, 2007: Niki’s 18^th birthday at her house at Filinvest. Went to Boks’s Birthday at Ipanema, Eastwood. Fun fun night with super friends!
68. November 2007: First Online Enlistment and Course Approvals.
69. November 24, 2007: Tracy’s birthday celebratiom at Paeng’s bowling, Eastwood. Saw superfriends again!
70. November 29, 2007: First online pre-enrollment. Pahirapan ito mehn. DL na dapat next term! Haha.
71. December was spent full of school works: deadlines, finals and course cards distribution.
72. December 27, 2007: The day I got my Starbucks 2008 Planner.
73. December 29, 2007: Christmas Party. FUN!
74. December 31, 2007: New Year’s eve!
75. Mga pahabol na 2007 memories, thoughts and etc. : El Filibusterismo play practices.
76. I figured out how the world can be so small. A blockmate of mine was a classmate of my barkada during their high school years and also, a friend of my schoolmate back in elementary. Basta, napatunayan kong maliit talaga ang mundo.
77. I went to college. DLS-CSB, Bachelor of Arts in Multimedia Arts. I am proud to be Benilde.
78. I have found a new passion: Photography.
79. I wanted to save money and not depend on my parents.
80. The year where there were a lot of family problems. And also the year before last year which is 2006.
81. For the first time in 2 years, I almost fell in love. But did not allow myself to. I was still scared of being hurt.
82. Met new friends: DV6, my precious block. A BLOCK TO REMEMBER, really. I am so thankful I was part of this block. They’re my first friends, first block and first barkada in college.
83. After a year, I have again found myself having the drive to study and get better grades. And be someone better than myself. During my senior year, I was fine at being okay. I was tired of the expectations and everything, academically.
84. I met new friends: friends of friends. Etc, etc, etc.
85. I have had so many experiences that I can’t list them all down.
86. 2007 was a great year. Year full of laughters, tears, joys, goodbyes, and friendships.
87. 2007 was one hell of a rollercoaster ride and I am proud I went through it alive.
88. I just wanted to make this list with 88 numbers so yeah. Hahaha. :p

Salamat sa pagbabasa ng pagkahaba-habang listahan ng mga nangyari sa akin ng 2007. Kung super detailed pa ‘to, malamang hindi niyo na babasahin. Hahaha. Nagtataka siguro kayo bakit alam na alam ko yung dates. Kasi nakalagay siya sa 2007 planner ko ng Starbucks. Lahat ng nangyayari sakin, nilalagay ko. So ayun. Wala lang. Haha.

Have a great 2008 everyone!

¹ two batches higher than me.

010108.

Okay so it’s already January 1, 2008.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!! Yay. It’s New Year already. I always say, “Can you imagine how time flies by so fast?” LOL. I realize that but it just won’t sink in to me. Sometimes I can’t accept how time flies by reaaaaaaallyyyy fast! I mean, man, I’ll be one year older this year! And I’ll be legal the next year! It was like only yesterday or no maybe not, let’s scratch that, it’s too exaggerated. Haha! It was like only last month(still exaggerated but that’s how really fast time is for me you know, like you can’t waste any moment of it) when I was like 13 or 14 or a junior high school student or a graduating high school student or an incoming college freshman. Now, I will be on my 3rd term as a college freshman then be one year older then be a college sophomore! You know how fast that is?! LOL. *sighs*

Looking back, I wish I had embraced more of the times that can only happen once in a blue moon. But anyway, still looking back, 2007 was a great year for me. I have learned A LOT and I mean really A LOT of things that I will forever keep in mind as I continue my journey to life. It was full of sad and happy moments. Well, that’s how life is right? If not, it would be way too boring. And I realize the more you get older and you expand your social network(parang friendster lang ah? lol), life gets more complicated. Still all of us would wish to go back to the times when life was simple and little things are just enough for us to be happy. But past is past, we should leave everything in the past and learn from it.

Just like 2007, we should leave every bad and even good things that had happened, learn from our mistakes, move on and just leave all those to our memories.

Anyway, I’m supposed to have a year-ender something for this blog but like what I said in my previous post, I have the tendency to start a thing then won’t get to finish it because of laziness. Yeah, that’s what happened. I’ll try to finish it or somehow make it short so I can show it to you guys. Or maybe not. Lol.

Only 1 week to go before classes start! I still have a lot to do that I haven’t started yet. Grr. I should change this this year. It’s really bad for me, for my life, for my line of work and for everyone I leave hanging with all the projects needed to be done. Nge, parang school? Lol. My dad will kill me now if I won’t be able to finish it this vacation. This one’s soooo last last year. I gotta keep my promises.

Anyway, I will post about my 2007 next time if I get to finish it now.

BTW, Draft pala ‘to. Ngayon ko lang mapo-post. Tinamad kasi ako e. Hehe.