On a lot of things. :)

Some things here, I’ve already said on my previous post but this one’s from my Multiply blog I just posted today. Might as well post it here. BTW, I mentioned below that I want to change my layout, but I dunno. The blog part of the site has small width, which makes it hard for people to read. Whaddyathink?

ON BEING A BUM:
I need to stop being a bum in front of the pc all the time. I’m hating it already. Doing the same things all over again. Though I’m having fun with Photoshop, it’s not all I do. I turn to MySpace, Facebook and Friendster all the time. Especially Facebook and MySpace! BOO! It’s so damn addicting! And this blog, I get lazy updating it. I feel like I wanna change the layout again. I have one ready, already coded and all that, but I’m just too lazy.

ON GOING OUT:
Now I need to go out. I wanna go out with my gerlssss. Deym I need to talk to them! As in NEED. Lots of things I wanna tell them. o_o And I miss my high school friends. If one of you are reading thisssss! OMGZ! Let’s go out! I’m missing them badlyyyyy. Supasupasupafriends, haven’t hung out with y’all for quite some time now. Makes me sad.

ON DVDS:
I need to buy DVDs, the series of Gossip Girl and the O.C. Koreanovelas too! Like Hana Kimi, and other good stuff. You know other Koreanovelas that you can call ‘good stuff’ you can recommend me?

ON BOOKS:
I also need to buy the books I’ve been wanting to read for the whole past year. Like the last Harry Potter book. I’m a loser for not having one yet. The Twilight series! Migadddd, I’ve watched the trailer and it’s so effin’ awesome. 12/12, Twilighters! And this year’s also the release of the last book in the series. Other good books to recommend, people?

ON PROJECTS:
And I also need to finish the website I’ve been doing for the past weeks. BAH. I dunno, it’s just that whenever I think, I get headaches. LOL. I like thinking though.

ON THINGS:
AND.. I like preoccupying myself with thingssss to do.

ON TIME:
Man, time is running out. School’s almost near, atleast for me. Cos yknow how time flies by real fast? Yeah. Yeaa. Boohoo.

ON ACDC:
Lately, we[yeah, Cerisse included hahaha] have been obsessing with ACDC[Adam/Chu Dance Crew]. And their shirt’s on sale now!!! Mr. Chu made it available werrldwide! Butttt, it’s worth effin’ $21.70, shipping included! Whathebuckkk! I don’t have that kind of money. I even told my friend from Cali to buy me an ACDC shirt, his gift for my birthday! He said, “haha maybe”. I was kidding though. But I was kidding! I just hope he’s not reading this. LOL. Yeah right, like the ACDC shirts are selling like hotcakes. LOL. Last time I checked, there are only two pieces left. I just hope they print more! So by that time, I already have money to buy it cos I just spent my money on online shopping in Multiply! LOL. The ACDC shirts are for charity anyways! But Cerisse messaged Mr. Chu if we can print ACDC shirts here in the Phils., we made our own designs. But he didn’t reply, he just read it. Booooo. Maybe it’s bcos they made it available worldwide and he of course, assumed that the info already spread on us, so no need to reply. Soo even if we’ll have our own ACDC shirts printed… STILL! I want their ACDC sherrrt! FOREALLLZ! I wanna be part of the crew. Hahaha! That’s what Adam Sevani said on his bulletin on MySpace! “Be part of the crew.” That’s why I’m loving MySpace. You get to talk to them! Like Cerisse, he got to talk with Harry Shum, Jr.(Cable on Step Up 2)! HAHAHAHA! Anyways, nuff with the ACDC talk. My brother told me I’m obsessed wit dem already. And so as my friend from Cali. So I guess, I am obsessed with them! Haha.

ON YOUTUBE:
Does anyone of you know Nigahiga of YouTube? HAHAHA! His vids are sooo funny! The result of boredom I guess. But heck, he’s got like a million views for every video he have on his channel! He’s got like 271,450 subscribers! Include me on that. Haha. PLUS! He’s cute btw! :p Hahaha. Youtube crush, LOLZ! I’ve also subscribed on Jon M. Chu’s YTube channel and as well as the Miley&Mandy Show. And I’m wonderin’, what’s up with singing and ukeleles in the U.S.? I dunno, it’s like very popular. I love this one though, Windward Skies cover. Thanks to my friend for showing that to me. And I saw this very kawaii video too called Animal Idol. Yeah, an American Idol for animals. Lol. So maybe you figured out what I do whenever I’m online. I just don’t get how I can spend my whole day just doing all these. Sux000.

ON MUSIC:
I just realized my taste for music has uhmm, how do you put it, broaden? I dunno, I just like listening to country songs lately. Thanks to MySpaceeeee! I just realized how I love praise songs too. Hillsong United will be having a concert here on the 26th! A day just before my berrrrthdayyym. I would love to see them live. And oh, I love hearing old school songs lately! It lights me up, brings a smile to my face. Imma download Backstreet Boys songs. What other good old songs are there? Make me remember. And I had my seat reserved on Marie Digby’s online concert on the 19th, 6am, our time. That’s veryyy early so I have to like get up at around 5am. I bet there’ll be a massive site traffic. I just hope my PC won’t crash. I want to buy her album! As well as Taylor Swift’s album. I heard her songs on MS and I loved it. Anywaysss…

ON AGE:
I feel like I’m 17 already. HAHA. ) I still have 19 days left to enjoy my sweeeettt 16. Was it sweet? Ionnooo. LOL.

ON AMERICAN IDOL:
Top 4 finalists are the 2 Davids, Syesha and Jason Castro. After their performance? I bet Jason Castro will go. So top 3 are the 2 Davids and Syesha. My top 2? The 2 Davids. David Archuleta and David Cook. Whoever wins, it’s okay. They’re both good.

ON REALITY:
Reality slapped me once again on my face! LIKE IT ALWAYS DOES! ) After I read Anna’s S-S.org blog! Haha. Ooh, Imma post this on my blogspot too. I need to like, update that from my random blahs.

ON RENZ:
I’m sorry I wasn’t able to give to you your vectorrrr! Haha. Sorry talagaaaa! But you can wait more right? Hehe. Thanks Renzzyyy!

The weak week.

WARNING: Long post ahead. :p

Okay so it’s been almost one week since I updated my blog. WTH I can’t believe it’s already May 1! OHGOSH. May 21 pasok na namin!!! BAH. I should finish the things I need to do and want, as well. :p I need to go to school on days 14-17, whenever during that week for course adjustment. I don’t wanna be underload! Grr. I want to watch DVDs which I haven’t been able to buy yet and read books like Twilight. Yeaaa. I still have like 91 days to read all three books before the last book comes. Hahaha. I saw the movie behind the scenes and some fan-made trailers and it’s all awesome. I’m getting excited though I haven’t read the book yet. I mean, it’s a romantic vampire story, who wouldn’t want that? Everyone is like in love with Edward and Bella. Hahaha. Today’s my brother’s girlfriend birthday and yesterday we bought gifts for her. So I suggested my brother to give her a book. We were supposed to buy the new Nicholas Sparks book since she said she’ll buy it, might as well give her the book. But it wasn’t available in that National Bookstore branch. So we bought another book which is, Twilight. Wah, if I get my pay I’d surely splurge my money on books but still save something for erm, things I need in school later on.

Last week, I was having a hard time. It wasn’t my week last week, I was just really sad. No, actually I wasn’t. I was moody! Sobrang nakakainis kasi sobra yung mood swings. One minute I’m happy, then another I’m sad. I hated it. It got to the point where I cannot feel anything anymore. I cried because of that. I’d rather feel anything, even pain, than not feeling anything at all. I felt dead. But the next day which is Monday, I had this dream. Imma paste this from my Multiply.

I woke up earlier than what I expected, I thought it was already 11 am, but I looked at the clock and it was still quarter to 9am. So I turned on the PC, checked my myspace, friendster, facebook, multiply, mail and blog hopped. I DLed songs and..

My mom, someone else I don’t know who and I were talking and suddenly, I couldn’t speak. I tried so hard to speak but I couldn’t. Tapos na-realize ko may nakabara sa throat ko so tinanggal ko. That was really weird. When I did, I started to bleed. Nagsusuka na ako ng dugo. Then I didn’t know what to do. And my nose also started to bleed. I was helpless. I asked God for help, I prayed really hard. And I was thinking if I should go to the hospital already or what, but I thought it would end soon. But it didn’t. All I can see is red blood. I thought I was dying! I called my friends using my phone and we went to see each other. I texted Jesy, she told me to go to FEU-NRMF then find her there. I said, “it’s too late.”

Then I woke up.

It’s weird cos I rarely experience dreams in my sleep. When I woke up, I can still remember the feeling of not being able to speak. But I thank God that it was all just a dream. I was freaked out! I was really freaked out. It got me thinking through out the day even the meaning of it. I searched for a dream dictionary online since I don’t know where our old dream dictionary is.

Blood

To see blood in your dream, represents life, love, and passion as well as disappointments. If you see the word “blood” written in your dream, then it may refer to some situation in your life that is permanent and cannot be changed.

To dream that you are bleeding or losing blood, signifies that you are suffering from exhaustion or that you are feeling emotionally drained. It may also denote bitter confrontations between you and your friends. Your past actions has come back to haunt you.

Throat

It shows considerable powers of imagination and signifies a successful venture.

Nose

Instinctive knowledge. It reflects great powers of imagination and creativity, but also difficult relations with a partner.

Red

This is an indication of great passion and sensitivity in your emotional relationships.

Help

To dream that you are calling or signaling for help, suggests that you are feeling lost, overwhelmed, and/or inadequate.

Helpless

To dream that you are or feel helpless, suggests that you are experiencing difficulties in confronting a situation or relationship. You feel that you are unable to take charge of yourself.

Silence

To dream that you are silent, indicates an inability to express yourself. You may feel inhibited in voicing your opinion and how you really feel.

So that’s it. Maybe that’s what I’m feeling for the past week that I couldn’t exactly explain what. What my dream meant was actually true in my reality.

So yeah, but I’m better now compared last week. Way way better. Going out helped a lot.

Speaking of going out, mom, dad, my brother and his girlfriend went to a Jap restaurant along Panay Avenue to eat last Tuesday. There, we talked about the past, how we got here, why we went here, and everything back then.

So now I know the real reason why we moved here to Manila from Cotabato.

I was born in Cotabato City but I am in Manila for like 11 years already. Almost half my life so basically, I grew up in Manila. Quezon City, specifically. I was 6 when we moved here. Before, I thought the reason why we moved here is bcos of my brothers who then has a band. They had an album and their song became a hit. So the recording company, which is Polycosmic Records then but Universal Records now, said they should come to Manila already. So we did. And they did TV guestings and all that. I was with them all the way. It was such a challenge moving here cos when we moved, we had no house at all! And our furnitures and all are still in the ship. LOL. That was around April 1999, a month after I graduated kindergarten.

Back in Cotabato, business was really good. Meron kaming video games store(all over Cotabato), movie rentals(back when vhs tapes and laser discs were very popular haha) store and an all-in-one bar, restaurant, club, videoke named after my name. LOL. Business was really doing well. Kami yung unang may ganun dun. Hindi pa tapos yung construction, pina-open na. Lots of artists went there like Manilyn Reynes, UMD Dancers, Streetboys, Yano, etc etc etc. I can’t remember though cos I was still young. Nung in-open yun, sobrang dami raw ng tao. Naubusan pa ng food and beer. LOL. Tapos may mga G.R.O. pa daw, hahahaha! And they held contests there like dance contests, costume contest every Halloween and all that. Pinauso din dun yung Ladies Night which is every Wednesday, Ballroom night, and etcetera. Yung restaurant, sobrang okay yung food. I remember nakaakyat pa ako sa kitchen. Yung videoke, may 5 private videoke rooms and a big videoke room outside it. The 5 videoke rooms were all named after our Zodiac Signs: Aquarius, Capricorn, Gemini, Taurus, and Libra. Lahat yun nasa isang building. It’s a big lot cos from what I remember, it’s only one floor. Tumugtog din dun mga kuya ko. Then dad told us na nabilib yung manager ng isang band na nakasabay nila kuya and sinabi niya, “Grabe, malayo mararating nito.” Tapos masayang-masaya sila after kasi may sweldo sila, 50 pesos! Pero mind you, malaki na yun nung time na yun.

Though business was really good, my parents had been receiving death threats even before the bar was opened. Three all in all. Two before the bar was opened, and another one when it was already opened.. I guess. Basta tatlo. They didn’t mind it. Hindi sila nagbigay ng kung anong money kahit na pinagbantaan na ng kidnap and all those shits. 50k ang hinihingi nun. To think, malaki na yung ganung amount dati dba? The military said na wag magbigay. Yeah, we had military escorts. I was like, whoa! “Parang secret service, haha.”. They showed the first two letter threats to the military and so ayun. Kinekwento ng mom ko na looking back, parang nakakahiya daw na may sumusunod sa’yo na military kahit san magpunta. Kahit mag-grocery lang or what. Hindi ko matandaan yun, seriously. Of course, bata pa ako.

Dun pa nabaril yung asawa nung auntie ko, kapatid ng mom ko. He was just outside then a drive-by happened. I still remember that! I was in the hallway, just near outside, talking to my brother and mom. Then we heard the gun shots. Then bam! Ayun. Grabe yun. Dun na kami natulog. Sa videoke lounge. To think that all of us were there! My cousins, my brothers, everyone. Grabe yun.

I don’t know when the third death threat came, before or after the incident, but it involves us, the children. Sabi dun, alam kung saan kami nag-aaral and all that. E natakot na si mommy, so sinabi niya kay dad na umalis na kami dun. E sakto, okay ang band nila kuya, may album tapos sakto pinapapunta sila dito sa Manila. So ayun, we’ve been here ever since. Hindi kami bumalik dun for like I don’t know how many years. Mga year 2005 yata nung bumalik kami.

But even though, those were the good times. Mga Christmas Party ng clan nun, hindi ko naabutan talaga. Tapos yung bawat branch ng movie rental and video games shop namin may presentation. That was fun. I can still remember that. Sumayaw kami nun e. Kaming magpipinsan, younger ones. I was like 3 or 4 that time. Haha!

But hands down to my parents that they were able to handle all that. Nung lumipat kami dito, dala-dala nila aside from us, their children, are my four cousins(included din sa band) and my uncle, my mom’s youngest brother. Alala ko nagpupunta kami ng ABS-CBN nun at kung saan-saan. Mall tours, bars and all. Those days when bars were really really popular. So bata pa lang ako, mahilig na ako magpuyat. Haha. Naalala ko dun sila sa Art’s Venue sa Taft tumutugtog dati. Karamihan ng big bands that time, andun. And they were the youngest of all. Sobrang hanga ako sa mga kuya ko e. They have the talent. They have the gadgets every band would want to have. And with just one incident and should I say, person, BAM! Nasira lahat. Banda, pati na rin pagsasamahan ng fam, ALMOST. At least hindi totally. But we can’t do anything about that anymore. Those were the past. It was just fun reliving all those. And I bet we learned a lot from that, all of us.

Thank God, walang nangyaring kahit ano sa ‘min.
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BTW. Do you know about the Biggest Online Dance Battle in YouTube? Holymoleeyyy, ACDC(Adam/Chu Dance Crew) PWNED Miley&Mandy BIGTIME. WTFWTF ACDC’s awesomeee! They got JABBAWOCKEEZZZ!!! And Brianna Evigan, Rob Hoffman, LL, Amanda Bynes, Britanny Snow, Chris Scott, Chris Brown babyyyy! WTH. Though M&M got Channing Tatum, Crumbs, and other good dancers, FO SHOOO M&M GOT PWNED! ) If you don’t know what this is, watch this. BUT FIRST, watch the video that started it all. And the video response which got 3 million views. WATCH. THE BIGGEST ONLINE DANCE BATTLE IN YOUTUBE HISTORY. They’ll rock your socks man! Haha. Can’t wait what M&M Cru will come up with.

Can I chill for a minute?

March 14, last year high school pa lang ako. Finals namin. Ayon sa aking 2007 planner.

March 15, birthday na pala ni Val ngayon, HAPPY BIRTHDAY VAL! Finals pa rin namin.

Fast forward to today..
College ako. Hindi pa namin finals, hindi pa rin magtatapos ang school para sa ‘min. Madaming gagawin. Seryoso, sobrang busy these past few days. Actually weeks ago pa sobrang dami nang gagawin. Ngayon ko lang na-realize. Tipong ayoko nang humarap sa computer kasi hindi ko na magagawa yung mga iba kong gustong gawin, like movie marathons, TV watching, kulitan with my family, and stuff like that. Kapag nasa harapan kasi ako ng PC, nagiging anti-social ako. Pag may ginagawa ako dito, super focused talaga. Kaya nasisira mata ko e. Haha. At hindi na ako makatayo sa kinauupuan ko. Swear, ganun. Pero hindi pwedeng hindi akong humarap sa PC. Dahil MMA ang kurso ko at forever computer-related ito. Kelangan ko ring i-check araw-araw ang mail ko, ang online shop namin, ang multiply ko(dahil napag-iiwanan na ako, marami pa rin akong hindi nauupload), ang friendster ko(dahil ayoko naman na late reply sa comments), at ang blog ko.

Buti Friday ngayon, nakanood ako ng TV. Napanood ko ang ending ng Marimar. Grabe yun oh, pinagkagastusan talaga. Ang pretty talaga ni Marian Rivera. Haha. Anywayyyy, nagpunta ako dito sa PC para i-edit yung remaining pics nung batchmate ko dati na debut sa 28th. Para wala nang dagdag pproblemahin. Ma-stress pa ako e. LOLz. Pero hindi ko pa rin siya ginagawa. Uh-oh. Dapat kasi natutulog na rin ako ngayon. Kasi maaga pa ako bukas dahil may practice kami for our P.E. Dance on Monday na Tango. And magppractice na rin kami for our Finals which is HIPHOP! Ohyea! I so missed dancing this kaya sobrang natuwa ako nung nalaman kong yan ang finals namin! Hehe. Tapos after the practice, we’re gonna continue the shoot for Jamila’s debut. This time, video naman. For the last few weeks kasi, puro photoshoots. So video na gagawin namin ngayon. Then yung classmate namin nung high school said na baka may celebration yung kaklase namin ng birthday niya. Di pa namin alam kung meron.

Then on Sunday, my barkada and I will have another bonding moment at TriNoma. We’re gonna watch Step up 2, lunch then ayun. We planned on having this every month just to keep in touch. But I said hanggang 4pm lang siguro kasi Palm Sunday at syempre magsisimba kami dba.

Aside from that, meron pang PHILOMA(Philosophy of Man) project na is-shoot, FILIP13(Retorika) song adaption(lol, we chose With You by Chris Brown, my blockmate already made the lyrics), Business Math quizzes to worry about, World Literature classes(pinoproblema namin ang mga stories at poems, oo. haha), COMSK2x(Technical Literature) multimedia resume and project proposal, and uh.. yeah. I think that’s pretty much it. It’s a lot, I tell you. Plus the Course Approval thingy pa pala! Di pa approved yung enlisted subjects ko kahit na napasa ko na yung requirements sa academic adviser ko. Oh well. Tapos ano pa ba.. basta, yan. Hectic. So, sorry if hindi ako nakakadalaw sa mga blogs niyo. Malapit na rin ang end ng classes(yeah like April 19) so busy talaga. Pero I’m not stressing YET. I hope I won’t! Oh well.

I guess all of us are busy. Some update lang. Naaliw ako sa journal na ginawa namin for Filipino for almost a week, everyday! Ayos din pala ang may entry araw-araw. Pero siguro for myself lang? Haha. Wala lang, baka ma-trip-an ko sometime. Good thing there’s the Holy Week break! almost 4 days of break. Pero marami pa rin akong gagawin kahit break. Like go to church, celebrate the Holy week and academic stuff. Yeah.

good luck sa ‘ting lahat. random stuff lang. thanks for those who dropped by!

Blast from the past: 2007.

88 THINGS I DID ON 2007. Beware, this is uber long.

1. January 7, 2007: ACET Results was released online. I wasn’t accepted. One dream school down.
2. January 13, 2007 Saturday: We made our Economics project. Why is this extraordinary? Well, we went to my high school crush’s¹ house and interviewed his dad for our project. He went with us to go to their office then my barkada-slash-groupmates insisted that he will be the one to drive my ka-barkada’s car. Then, I was the last one to get into the car then the next thing I know, they were all sitted at the back. I had no choice but to sit in the front passenger seat. GREAT. LOL. Then my ka-barkada who is his neighbor asked him to go with us to Starbucks, Convergy’s. But this time, I sitted at the back. Nakakahiya na kasi yun, grabe! Natatandaan siguro talaga ako nun by face. HAHAHA. Walanghiya. Anyway, I still remember, we ordered a Grande Caramel Frappucino. LOL.
3. January 17, 2007: Had our National Career Assessment Exam.
4. January 22, 2007: UPCAT Results were released. This was a super sad day for me. Two dream schools down.
5. January 26, 2007: USTET Results were released. I passed but was on Academic Placement. So I needed to go to the UST-OFAD on March 3 for the printout of the list of courses I qualified for.
6. February 2, 2007: Teacher’s Day organized by the Student Council. I made the certificates to be given to the teachers. Yey!
7. February 6-12, 2007: Swing practice for Prom. Haha. I miss this. I miss dancing! Lol. What I love about dance practices is that we get to be excused for our classes. Nyahaha.
8. February 9, 2007: Student Council assistance for Mathrix, a math quiz bee organized by our school. This was really a great experience! I swear!
9. February 10, 2007: Student Council assistance for MTAP. This was a great experience too! Alala ko merong cute guy from Philadelphia High School dun e, senior high din. Hahaha. We were at our mini-theater and I was operating the laptop and I said to the one watching over their team, “Ui, cute yung nasa kanan.” HAHAHA. Then she said, “Onga eh, kaya kanina pa ako nakatingin sakaniya e. At least may rason ako. Hahaha.”
10. February 14, 2007: Valentine’s Day booths organized by the Student Council. This was fun but at the same time hard. I was assigned at the main registration booth and grabe super gulo ng mga tao especially the first and second years! Haha.
11. February 19, 2007: Two things happened this day. First, we had our JS Prom at Shangrila Edsa. Second, the DLS-CSB Entrance Exam results were released. And I passed. Masaya akong nakapasa ako nun pero alam ko kasi na hindi ako ditto mag-aaral so malungkot din.
12. February 26, 2007: Had my Talumpati for our Filipino subject.
13. February 28, 2007: We performed our Filipino play(El Filibusterismo), ny last high school play. Lol.
14. March 1 and 2, 2007: School Foundation day. This was the worst foundation day ever! We spell it, B-O-R-I-N-G. There were no rides, no tiangges, no programs at all! Grrrr.
15. March 3, 2007: I went to UST-OFAD for the printout of list of courses I qualified for. Since I didn’t pass my talent test, I was on Academic Placement. So instead they gave me a 4-page list of the courses I got in to. I was happy though because I was qualified to be in Architecture, Engineering, Biology, Math, Physics, Pharmacy, Commerce, and the list goes on. So pag pumili ako dun, wait-listed na ako. Anyway, I never thought I could be qualified with those courses but what the hell? That’s way too near my preferred course which is Fine Arts. GREAT. I chose Commerce and Information Technology because I had no choice but to choose. Nge, haha.
16. March 8, 2007: We performed our music project. Not sure about the date though. Anyway, each group composed a song, preferably a graduation song for us to sing on our Graduation day, and then our music teacher will pick one song from the 3 sections. Too bad our song wasn’t picked but our grad song was picked from our section and that’s enough for me.
17. March 17, 2007: This started it all. I realized and I knew I had to choose. I got in to two colleges. Not my dream colleges but at least, I got in. I had a choice where to go. One was nearer from where we live and is a university but I didn’t get in to my course choices and the second was way too far from where we live, tuition is expensive, runs on a trimester basis but the one where my heart really is. I was already thinking so hard what to choose. I never thought how I managed to think about that after gazillions of school work I had to do.

Anyway, this date was the deadline for Academic Placement slips for UST. I was thinking so hard what I will choose as instead of Fine Arts and Communication Arts because I knew they really wanted me to go to UST. So yeah, I chose I.T. and Commerce. I want to share what was written on my planner that day: There are choices ahead which could change your life. Unfortunately, there aren’t any crystal balls to provide the answers, telling you where to go or what to do. But it is true that centuries of wisdom have never improved on this advice: Listen to your heart. I have a choice. But I am afraid. Does the heart ever go wrong? I know, it’s so much drama. But hey, it’s me. Mas maganda na yung pag-isipan ng mabuti kesa sa sumalang sa kolehiyo at kumuha ng mga kursong hindi mo gusto at hindi ka sigurado, di ba?

18. March 19, 2007: This was the very day I told my brother, “Kuya, gusto ko sa Benilde. *laughs*” I was supposed to just say it jokingly. Basta, to just say it. But what the hell man, I broke down. I cried really really hard. I guess this was the first time I cried on my brother about some serious things. He said, “Sandali lang, tatawagin ko si Kuya Junjun.” And I insisted not to. I said, “Kuya waggg! Sara mo yung door!” I didn’t want anyone to see me cry like that. Takot ako at nahihiya. But he already called my 2^nd eldest brother. So he said to me, “Bat ka umiiyak?” Tapos tumawa kami. I was trying hard not to cry. Sobrang pinipigilan ko na yung iyak ko nun. Yeah, silly right? Crying just because of that. But that’s just me, I’m really sentimental. Then he asked my brother, “Ba’t to umiiyak? Inaway mo?” Hahaha. Then yun, my bro told the whole story. And he was asking me questions. Basta all I remember was I was crying really hard and I was super touched because they really supported me. They got my back. Then my 2^nd eldest brother told me, “Sabihin natin kila mommy bukas yan. Wag ka na umiyak.” Then we went downstairs because we ate some icecream. Pampalamig daw ng ulo. Then while we were leaving the room, our eldest brother came out from his room and saw me. He said, “Oh, bakit ‘to umiiyak? Ano nangyari?” My brother told him, “Destiny, ‘tol.” Hahaha. The next day, my mom and dad knew about it. And yeah, I guess they thought really hard about it. I don’t know but it took about a month to tell that they agreed that I go to Benilde. My dad was the first one who agreed among all of them. My mom was just silent about it. My brothers didn’t want me to because they knew they will be the one who will drive me to school since they won’t allow me to commute and they know that Taft is reallyyyy far. When I was thinking and deciding if I will say to them where I want to go, I really considered everything: the distance, the expenses, my family’s feelings and etcetera. I told it to a family friend and she said, “Don’t make distance a hindrance to your dreams. Tingnan mo ako, I really wanted to take up Economics but I was rejected by a lot of schools there. But I never gave up. So I’m here at Singapore. And 3 or 4 years of driving you to school won’t hurt your brothers, won’t it?” That wasn’t the exact words she said but it was somewhat like that. I am really thankful I have these people around me and I am proud of myself for fighting for my dreams.
19. March 21, 2007: News breakout: our school’s terminating its operation. It was a sad day for the whole OLGM community.
20. March 22, 2007: Bomb squad at our school. Why? Well, if you have heard of the news, may sumabog sa school namin na pill box. Hahaha. We thought that it was some effect that the school planned since it planned to close, graceful exit kumbaga. Hahaha. Magsasara na nga, sasabog pa. We had a joke about this. Before a lot of us were saying, “Ipasara ang OLGM! Pasabugin ang OLGM!” So ayun nga, nagsara nga. Sumabog pa. LOL. This was also a dramatic day for the 4^th year teachers, the whole faculty and fourth year students. A long story but anyway, we were so pasaway during our graduation practice and our teacher got pissed off at us. Napakahabang sermon yun! Pero sobrang touching and totoo naman. We realized our mistakes and the whole senior batch went outside the faculty and we sang our graduation song to them. Sobrang deadma sila. Pero super cry din kaming lahat pati na rin sila. Hay.
21. March 30, 2007: The day I graduated from high school, said goodbye to the best years of my life, my teachers, and my super friends. Batch 2007, last batch of OLGM and batch “State your name!” Haha. Magulo ‘tong graduation na ‘to. Pero super cry! The OLGM Alumni was there and the lower batches. Sobrang lungkot neto. Parang almost one hour kami umiiyak sa stage. Hahaha.
22. April 13, 2007: Nalaman kong accepted ako sa Commerce. Hindi ko na inalam kung accepted ako sa I.T. kasi hindi namin mahanap kung saan nakalagay yung mga wait-list dun.
23. April 15, 2007: Outreach with 4-Faith at Angono, Rizal. This was really a heart-warming experience. I felt really good after this day. It was nice seeing my superfriends again. There were 8 4^th year faith people and some from the NorthView chapter of Tau Gamma Phi. For us 4-Faithers, we organized this outreach because our graduation was a blessing that we want to share with people. I met new people this day. We sung and danced with the youth members of the Christian Church Ms. Adah was part of. I really felt God that day. I felt so blessed! I was really thankful that I have those people around me.
24. April 17, 2007: We went to Benilde. We were just supposed to inquire about the tuition fee but my mom asked me, “Sigurado ka na ditto? Wala nang urungan ah?” I said smiling, “Oo.” So yun, unexpected confirmation. Haha. I was really happy. Hay grabe.
25. May 2, 2007: CSB Enrollment for MMA Students! I was like, oh no! Magc-college na ko! Hahaha. Naalala ko nakita ko yung dalawa kong blockmates nung day na yun pero syempre hindi ko pa alam na blockmates ko sila.
26. May 3, 2007: Went back to CSB for ID Picture. Sobrang haba ng pila nung enrollment mismo e.
27. May 10, 2007: Went to Davao.
28. May 12, 2007: Went to Laugh Tough at The Venue Compound then my cousin, his wife and my brother’s girlfriend then but now his wife fetched me to go to Yellow Haus (coffee shop).
29. May 22, 2007: I went back to Manila. Just me, myself and I. First time kong sumakay ng eroplano na ako lang mag-isa! Woo-hoo! Achievement! Haha.
30. May 23, 2007: SDA Frosh Orientation. This was the first time I met my blockmates and some of my friends. Fun day and a great experience! I felt proud being officially a Benildean. Ohyea.
31. May 27, 2007: 16^th birthday ko! First time to go to Trinoma and ate at Mangan.
32. May 28, 2007: DLS-CSB start of classes. Nice 1^st college day!
33. June 8, 2007: Frosh Solidarity Night. First time to see Itchyworms, Callalily and Kjwan live. Cooliooo.
34. June 21, 2007: First Makati Thursday after class. We went to my blockmate’s condo at Kingswood for our POLIGOV Project. Most of my first term Thursday after classes was spent at Makati. And most of the time, naiiwan akong mag-isa dahil inaantay ko ang sundo ko so humahangouts nalang ako sa Mcdo dun. Haha.
35. June 24, 2007: Mrs. Neri Mendoza, our 2^nd year math teacher, died of cancer.
36. June 26, 2007: Camae and I went to UST kasi yun yung meeting place ng lahat ng pupunta sa burol ni Mrs. Neri. Grabe pa nun, suot ko yung jogging pants ng Benilde. Ang saya saya. Hahaha. So we went to Dulce Funeral Homes at Abad Santos with 7 of my batchmates. This day was one hell of an adventure ride on our way home! Hahaha. We were all girls and the 2 guys who were supposed to go with us backed out. Great, man! Lahat na yata ng polusyon napunta na sa’min. If not for our 2 batchmates, we would probably be lost already. Kung san-san kami napunta. Sobrang stressful pero fun day.
37. July 6, 2007: Went to CCP Little Theater to watch our NATSCA prof’s play, Teatro Porvenir. We went to Harbour Square after the play then my whole family(haha) fetched me from there and we went to eat at Seaside.
38. July 7, 2007: UAAP Opening. Didn’t go but I was at Gateway shooting our Filipino project. I saw a lot of OLGM people during this day. So happy!
39. July 12, 2007: 1^st mall out with DV6 at Robinson’s Manila.
40. July 16, 2007: Pagtuklas Recollection with DV6. And I saw the asshole while I was on my way home. Great, of all of my batchmates, I saw the asshole. Haha. I texted him that I saw him and he asked where I saw him, I said, “Sa may Pegasus.” Hahahaha! It was true! He was outside waiting for an FX or something.
41. July 17, 2007: 2^nd time to ride the MRT and LRT. I went to Trinoma with Cerisse and saw Sam C., Mikee Lee, and Patricia Evangelista. Hahaha. Then guess what? I saw the asshole again! WTH man! Of all people I know! I was sure he saw me but ayun, deadma. Ang gago talaga ever. Haha. Anyway, pinatawad ko na yun. Wala na yun. Karamihan sa inyo hindi alam ang kwento kasi karamihan senyo new readers and nangyari yun nung 2005 pa. ;p
42. July 19, 2007: Went to G4 with DV6, Timezone-ing and I rode the MRT by myself! First time! Proud ako. Hahaha. Wala pa sa family naming ang nakasakay ng MRT at LRT. Haha.
43. July 20, 2007: Campus Stopover ’07. Moonstar 88, Imago, Sandwich, Blue Ketchup, etc etc.
44. July 28, 2007: OLGM Reunion batch 07 at Trinoma.
45. August 3-6, 2007: Happy and felt something different. Hahaha. But I hated to feel it first.
46. August 11, 2007: Trinoma with a batchmate-slash-schoolmate, a friend and his bestfriend. I met a new friend this day.
47. August 15, 2007: Ang di dapat sinabi ay sinabi. I told someone I like him. WAHAHAHA. Silly. But I am proud now though. Never thought I could have that courage. LOL.
48. The rest of the first term went and the term break comes in! Ohyea. Haha. Madami pa ‘to!
49. September 5, 2007: Went to GenSan.
50. September 6, 2007: Course Card Distribution. I wasn’t able to go so I had someone get it for me. Panira yung dalawang 2.0 ko. Walanghiya talaga. Hindi ko matanggap Bibstud grade ko nun. A busy day for me.
51. September 7, 2007: The day I decided to let go. Yak. Hahaha. Thanks sa Friendster. Walanghiya. Hanged out at KCC Mall again, since I got to GenSan. I always stayed at a coffee shop there named Coffee Dreamz.
52. September 8, 2007: Stayed at our hotel room since minors weren’t allowed at the Winston event. I watched a 20-in-1 Tagalog Movie DVD. Hahaha. I watched Happy Hearts, Ang cute ng ina mo, The Promise, and You are the One. Haha.
53. September 9, 2007: Mom and Dad’s anniversary. We went to Davao. Ate at Buffet Palace. I sent a group message to my super friends and so they knew my ka-dramahan. LOL.
54. Sept. 10, 2007: Yung sign.
55. September 12, 2007: Start of 2^nd term. Was absent for about a week.
56. September 18, 2007: Kuya Ian and Ate Liza’s wedding at Sunny Point, Ma-a, Davao City.
57. September 19, 2007: Went back to Manila. Went to my last class then went to SDA with two friends.
58. September 23, 2007: It said, “..eto yung start ng week na super sakit.” Gosh, grabe yun ah. Hahaha. Kadramahan talaga. Mygally.
59. September 26, 2007: Watched Resident Evil Extinction at Rob. Manila with Cerisse, CJ, Sofia and Pem. Watched it again at Trinoma with Kuya Ian and Ate Liza. Had my first Havs, ate Liza bought it for me. Waha.
60. September 29, 2007: Uncle Arthur’s birthday. Had some get together at our house then went to The Library, Malate. ROFL!!! First time ko sa ganun. Mygally. Hahaha.
61. September 30, 2007: Kuya Raymond’s Birthday. Went to Cloud 9, Antipolo.
62. October 4, 2007: My first UAAP game. Watched the UE vs. DLSU Championships Game 1 with Cerisse, CJ, Kevin C., Krystle, Marcell, Gerald, Joseph and Pam.
63. The rest of October went full of school works. November was spent full of late-night Saturday parties and bad shots (feeling ko lang. Haha.)
64. November 3, 2007: Eena’s debut at Toyz Café, Makati. Since kakatapos lang ng Halloween nun, costume party siya.
65. November 14, 2007: Watched One More Chance with DV6 at Rob. Manila. Went to the Tech Project for ORDEV-B at SDA.
66. November 16, 2007: This is Art exhibit at SDA Bldg. Naiwan akong almost mag-isa. Umalis na karamihan ng ka-block ko nun. Pero super cool neto Cocktail party siya so ayun, may food nga, takaw ng mga kablock ko. Hahaha. May art exhibit, freedom wall, bands, and the last part was all film showing. Sobrang proud to be Benilde.
67. November 17, 2007: Niki’s 18^th birthday at her house at Filinvest. Went to Boks’s Birthday at Ipanema, Eastwood. Fun fun night with super friends!
68. November 2007: First Online Enlistment and Course Approvals.
69. November 24, 2007: Tracy’s birthday celebratiom at Paeng’s bowling, Eastwood. Saw superfriends again!
70. November 29, 2007: First online pre-enrollment. Pahirapan ito mehn. DL na dapat next term! Haha.
71. December was spent full of school works: deadlines, finals and course cards distribution.
72. December 27, 2007: The day I got my Starbucks 2008 Planner.
73. December 29, 2007: Christmas Party. FUN!
74. December 31, 2007: New Year’s eve!
75. Mga pahabol na 2007 memories, thoughts and etc. : El Filibusterismo play practices.
76. I figured out how the world can be so small. A blockmate of mine was a classmate of my barkada during their high school years and also, a friend of my schoolmate back in elementary. Basta, napatunayan kong maliit talaga ang mundo.
77. I went to college. DLS-CSB, Bachelor of Arts in Multimedia Arts. I am proud to be Benilde.
78. I have found a new passion: Photography.
79. I wanted to save money and not depend on my parents.
80. The year where there were a lot of family problems. And also the year before last year which is 2006.
81. For the first time in 2 years, I almost fell in love. But did not allow myself to. I was still scared of being hurt.
82. Met new friends: DV6, my precious block. A BLOCK TO REMEMBER, really. I am so thankful I was part of this block. They’re my first friends, first block and first barkada in college.
83. After a year, I have again found myself having the drive to study and get better grades. And be someone better than myself. During my senior year, I was fine at being okay. I was tired of the expectations and everything, academically.
84. I met new friends: friends of friends. Etc, etc, etc.
85. I have had so many experiences that I can’t list them all down.
86. 2007 was a great year. Year full of laughters, tears, joys, goodbyes, and friendships.
87. 2007 was one hell of a rollercoaster ride and I am proud I went through it alive.
88. I just wanted to make this list with 88 numbers so yeah. Hahaha. :p

Salamat sa pagbabasa ng pagkahaba-habang listahan ng mga nangyari sa akin ng 2007. Kung super detailed pa ‘to, malamang hindi niyo na babasahin. Hahaha. Nagtataka siguro kayo bakit alam na alam ko yung dates. Kasi nakalagay siya sa 2007 planner ko ng Starbucks. Lahat ng nangyayari sakin, nilalagay ko. So ayun. Wala lang. Haha.

Have a great 2008 everyone!

¹ two batches higher than me.