You’ll always be a fart to me.

Heyyyy! Just some updates. :] So it’s exactly 8 days before school starts! YAY! Hello, sophomore year! Deym, time flies by reallll fast. It’s gonna be all school work now beybbb! At least I have something to worry about and think about and yeah. I guess I like it better when there’s school. I got things to do and I don’t bore myself. I dunno but since college, I just want to go to school. Hahaha. Srsly! You know during HS when classes get suspended cos of some typhoons or other reasons, I get really happy cos there’s no school. But now? I feel otherwise. Haha. Weird. But I think that’s good. I love learning new things. Better yet, I love education. :]

Anyway, this one month summer has been treating me so-so. I felt different things. I felt melancholic, nostalgic, happy, and other kind of stuff. I, once again, learned new things. I guess that’s something inevitable in life. Of course. We’re here to learn, right? And those things we learn make us discover who we are. I’ve just realized a lot of things. Like, how things can change especially feelings, like 7 years ago you may not like someone but 7 years later you realize you feel something ‘different’ towards that someone; how you can terribly miss someone so bad(yeah, terrible na bad pa haha); how you can feel really stupid after getting mad angry about something and the next day you realize you were just totally carried away of what happened; how you get sad when you think that that someone was once yours but now is living another kind of life far from yours; and other things I can’t put into words. There are just some things that’s fairly impossible to happen now yet you still hope that those things will come back to the way it used to be. It sucks like that.

Also I have come to think that no matter what, no matter how many years have passed or how many things may have changed, I will always be that person’s number one. I will always be that first. I should be thankful that we’re still friends. And I’m glad that that person still keeps me updated about the things happening in his life. If you think this is some ‘ex’, no it’s not. I haven’t had any boyfriend since birth, it’s just some ‘past’ thingy. OY. HAHA. Boink, drama much? LOL. I don’t wanna elaborate more, that person MIGHT read this. Stupid, I gave him the URL of this blog. Who knows, haha, I just don’t want that person to know YET. If ever I plan on telling that person someday. Maybe. So yeah, I just never thought I’d feel like this, that’s why. LOL.

So enough of that. :p I went to school yesterday to get an adjustment form and a deferred payment plan. My course adjustment schedule is on the 16th, Friday! OMGZ. Cerisse and I doesn’t have the same schedule! I should’ve went to school last Friday! BAH. I’m gonna add one subject since I’m underload and I don’t want that. The only schedule I saw that will fit my already encoded sched is the Tuesday&Thursday sched for CATHWOR(Catholic Worship) subject which is. 2:40-4:10…. OMGZ. I just realized that it doesn’t fit at all! HAHAHAHA. I thought it was a one day schedule. DEYM. WHAT A BUMMER. I have a Tuesday class 2:45-5:45! I just checked my sched again, OMGZ. WTHWTHWTH. Cerisseeeee, what naaaa? Take FREHAND? Hahaha. SHOCKS. SHOCKERRRR. Mannnn. :]]]]]] Why didn’t I check my sched earlier? Stupid! ) Grr. Okay, wait, imma calm myself down. Haha.

So yeah. I didn’t know that yesterday was the FOP(Frosh Orientation Program)! Haha. I went and I didn’t know. I wanna be an orientor next year for incoming frosh. It’s fun really! Haha. Oh well. My mom and my brother went inside the SDA building, by the way. Haha. My brotha parked in the carpark, LOLZ. The guard asked him, “Estudyante po?” He said, “Graduate na.” HAHAHA! Too bad I wasn’t able to like tour them around since we’re going somewhere after. Maybe on Friday. They said they’ll just stay in the cafeteria. And oh yessss I got to wear slippers inside the SDA building! Hahaha. Slippers are banned inside our campus. If you get caught, uh-oh, hello Disciplinary Office! I got caught once in the main building. Bah. :]] Never wore slippers since then :]] After school, we went to my brother’s school since he’ll get a form to get his Transcript of Records and Diploma. He just graduated last March so I’m the only one left in the family studying. Yayyy. Then we ate at KFC then went to Ortigas to fetch my brother’s girlfriend from work.

AND we got home at around 10pm! WTH. It’s sooooo traffic! We were in the QC Circle at around 7pm? But we were almost there for like an hour! I just slept. Haha. It’s prolly because of the transport strike. People were walking in the streets, bunch of them! Walang masakyan. Yay. To think it’s raining, so hassle! I think it’s good that I haven’t been in front of the PC for one whole day. Natiis ko. Hahaha.

Anyway that’s it for now. I’m trying to figure out why I can’t view blogspot sites. Google keeps on telling that it’s “404 FORBIDDEN”. WTH? Some virus crap daw. Blah. Why do you think it’s like that? Grabe, napahaba nanaman post ko. Betta get going before this gets longer than this already long one, haha. :]

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you’ll be with me
and you’ll never go

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You’ll always be a part of me
I’m part of you indefinitely

On a lot of things. :)

Some things here, I’ve already said on my previous post but this one’s from my Multiply blog I just posted today. Might as well post it here. BTW, I mentioned below that I want to change my layout, but I dunno. The blog part of the site has small width, which makes it hard for people to read. Whaddyathink?

ON BEING A BUM:
I need to stop being a bum in front of the pc all the time. I’m hating it already. Doing the same things all over again. Though I’m having fun with Photoshop, it’s not all I do. I turn to MySpace, Facebook and Friendster all the time. Especially Facebook and MySpace! BOO! It’s so damn addicting! And this blog, I get lazy updating it. I feel like I wanna change the layout again. I have one ready, already coded and all that, but I’m just too lazy.

ON GOING OUT:
Now I need to go out. I wanna go out with my gerlssss. Deym I need to talk to them! As in NEED. Lots of things I wanna tell them. o_o And I miss my high school friends. If one of you are reading thisssss! OMGZ! Let’s go out! I’m missing them badlyyyyy. Supasupasupafriends, haven’t hung out with y’all for quite some time now. Makes me sad.

ON DVDS:
I need to buy DVDs, the series of Gossip Girl and the O.C. Koreanovelas too! Like Hana Kimi, and other good stuff. You know other Koreanovelas that you can call ‘good stuff’ you can recommend me?

ON BOOKS:
I also need to buy the books I’ve been wanting to read for the whole past year. Like the last Harry Potter book. I’m a loser for not having one yet. The Twilight series! Migadddd, I’ve watched the trailer and it’s so effin’ awesome. 12/12, Twilighters! And this year’s also the release of the last book in the series. Other good books to recommend, people?

ON PROJECTS:
And I also need to finish the website I’ve been doing for the past weeks. BAH. I dunno, it’s just that whenever I think, I get headaches. LOL. I like thinking though.

ON THINGS:
AND.. I like preoccupying myself with thingssss to do.

ON TIME:
Man, time is running out. School’s almost near, atleast for me. Cos yknow how time flies by real fast? Yeah. Yeaa. Boohoo.

ON ACDC:
Lately, we[yeah, Cerisse included hahaha] have been obsessing with ACDC[Adam/Chu Dance Crew]. And their shirt’s on sale now!!! Mr. Chu made it available werrldwide! Butttt, it’s worth effin’ $21.70, shipping included! Whathebuckkk! I don’t have that kind of money. I even told my friend from Cali to buy me an ACDC shirt, his gift for my birthday! He said, “haha maybe”. I was kidding though. But I was kidding! I just hope he’s not reading this. LOL. Yeah right, like the ACDC shirts are selling like hotcakes. LOL. Last time I checked, there are only two pieces left. I just hope they print more! So by that time, I already have money to buy it cos I just spent my money on online shopping in Multiply! LOL. The ACDC shirts are for charity anyways! But Cerisse messaged Mr. Chu if we can print ACDC shirts here in the Phils., we made our own designs. But he didn’t reply, he just read it. Booooo. Maybe it’s bcos they made it available worldwide and he of course, assumed that the info already spread on us, so no need to reply. Soo even if we’ll have our own ACDC shirts printed… STILL! I want their ACDC sherrrt! FOREALLLZ! I wanna be part of the crew. Hahaha! That’s what Adam Sevani said on his bulletin on MySpace! “Be part of the crew.” That’s why I’m loving MySpace. You get to talk to them! Like Cerisse, he got to talk with Harry Shum, Jr.(Cable on Step Up 2)! HAHAHAHA! Anyways, nuff with the ACDC talk. My brother told me I’m obsessed wit dem already. And so as my friend from Cali. So I guess, I am obsessed with them! Haha.

ON YOUTUBE:
Does anyone of you know Nigahiga of YouTube? HAHAHA! His vids are sooo funny! The result of boredom I guess. But heck, he’s got like a million views for every video he have on his channel! He’s got like 271,450 subscribers! Include me on that. Haha. PLUS! He’s cute btw! :p Hahaha. Youtube crush, LOLZ! I’ve also subscribed on Jon M. Chu’s YTube channel and as well as the Miley&Mandy Show. And I’m wonderin’, what’s up with singing and ukeleles in the U.S.? I dunno, it’s like very popular. I love this one though, Windward Skies cover. Thanks to my friend for showing that to me. And I saw this very kawaii video too called Animal Idol. Yeah, an American Idol for animals. Lol. So maybe you figured out what I do whenever I’m online. I just don’t get how I can spend my whole day just doing all these. Sux000.

ON MUSIC:
I just realized my taste for music has uhmm, how do you put it, broaden? I dunno, I just like listening to country songs lately. Thanks to MySpaceeeee! I just realized how I love praise songs too. Hillsong United will be having a concert here on the 26th! A day just before my berrrrthdayyym. I would love to see them live. And oh, I love hearing old school songs lately! It lights me up, brings a smile to my face. Imma download Backstreet Boys songs. What other good old songs are there? Make me remember. And I had my seat reserved on Marie Digby’s online concert on the 19th, 6am, our time. That’s veryyy early so I have to like get up at around 5am. I bet there’ll be a massive site traffic. I just hope my PC won’t crash. I want to buy her album! As well as Taylor Swift’s album. I heard her songs on MS and I loved it. Anywaysss…

ON AGE:
I feel like I’m 17 already. HAHA. ) I still have 19 days left to enjoy my sweeeettt 16. Was it sweet? Ionnooo. LOL.

ON AMERICAN IDOL:
Top 4 finalists are the 2 Davids, Syesha and Jason Castro. After their performance? I bet Jason Castro will go. So top 3 are the 2 Davids and Syesha. My top 2? The 2 Davids. David Archuleta and David Cook. Whoever wins, it’s okay. They’re both good.

ON REALITY:
Reality slapped me once again on my face! LIKE IT ALWAYS DOES! ) After I read Anna’s S-S.org blog! Haha. Ooh, Imma post this on my blogspot too. I need to like, update that from my random blahs.

ON RENZ:
I’m sorry I wasn’t able to give to you your vectorrrr! Haha. Sorry talagaaaa! But you can wait more right? Hehe. Thanks Renzzyyy!

The weak week.

WARNING: Long post ahead. :p

Okay so it’s been almost one week since I updated my blog. WTH I can’t believe it’s already May 1! OHGOSH. May 21 pasok na namin!!! BAH. I should finish the things I need to do and want, as well. :p I need to go to school on days 14-17, whenever during that week for course adjustment. I don’t wanna be underload! Grr. I want to watch DVDs which I haven’t been able to buy yet and read books like Twilight. Yeaaa. I still have like 91 days to read all three books before the last book comes. Hahaha. I saw the movie behind the scenes and some fan-made trailers and it’s all awesome. I’m getting excited though I haven’t read the book yet. I mean, it’s a romantic vampire story, who wouldn’t want that? Everyone is like in love with Edward and Bella. Hahaha. Today’s my brother’s girlfriend birthday and yesterday we bought gifts for her. So I suggested my brother to give her a book. We were supposed to buy the new Nicholas Sparks book since she said she’ll buy it, might as well give her the book. But it wasn’t available in that National Bookstore branch. So we bought another book which is, Twilight. Wah, if I get my pay I’d surely splurge my money on books but still save something for erm, things I need in school later on.

Last week, I was having a hard time. It wasn’t my week last week, I was just really sad. No, actually I wasn’t. I was moody! Sobrang nakakainis kasi sobra yung mood swings. One minute I’m happy, then another I’m sad. I hated it. It got to the point where I cannot feel anything anymore. I cried because of that. I’d rather feel anything, even pain, than not feeling anything at all. I felt dead. But the next day which is Monday, I had this dream. Imma paste this from my Multiply.

I woke up earlier than what I expected, I thought it was already 11 am, but I looked at the clock and it was still quarter to 9am. So I turned on the PC, checked my myspace, friendster, facebook, multiply, mail and blog hopped. I DLed songs and..

My mom, someone else I don’t know who and I were talking and suddenly, I couldn’t speak. I tried so hard to speak but I couldn’t. Tapos na-realize ko may nakabara sa throat ko so tinanggal ko. That was really weird. When I did, I started to bleed. Nagsusuka na ako ng dugo. Then I didn’t know what to do. And my nose also started to bleed. I was helpless. I asked God for help, I prayed really hard. And I was thinking if I should go to the hospital already or what, but I thought it would end soon. But it didn’t. All I can see is red blood. I thought I was dying! I called my friends using my phone and we went to see each other. I texted Jesy, she told me to go to FEU-NRMF then find her there. I said, “it’s too late.”

Then I woke up.

It’s weird cos I rarely experience dreams in my sleep. When I woke up, I can still remember the feeling of not being able to speak. But I thank God that it was all just a dream. I was freaked out! I was really freaked out. It got me thinking through out the day even the meaning of it. I searched for a dream dictionary online since I don’t know where our old dream dictionary is.

Blood

To see blood in your dream, represents life, love, and passion as well as disappointments. If you see the word “blood” written in your dream, then it may refer to some situation in your life that is permanent and cannot be changed.

To dream that you are bleeding or losing blood, signifies that you are suffering from exhaustion or that you are feeling emotionally drained. It may also denote bitter confrontations between you and your friends. Your past actions has come back to haunt you.

Throat

It shows considerable powers of imagination and signifies a successful venture.

Nose

Instinctive knowledge. It reflects great powers of imagination and creativity, but also difficult relations with a partner.

Red

This is an indication of great passion and sensitivity in your emotional relationships.

Help

To dream that you are calling or signaling for help, suggests that you are feeling lost, overwhelmed, and/or inadequate.

Helpless

To dream that you are or feel helpless, suggests that you are experiencing difficulties in confronting a situation or relationship. You feel that you are unable to take charge of yourself.

Silence

To dream that you are silent, indicates an inability to express yourself. You may feel inhibited in voicing your opinion and how you really feel.

So that’s it. Maybe that’s what I’m feeling for the past week that I couldn’t exactly explain what. What my dream meant was actually true in my reality.

So yeah, but I’m better now compared last week. Way way better. Going out helped a lot.

Speaking of going out, mom, dad, my brother and his girlfriend went to a Jap restaurant along Panay Avenue to eat last Tuesday. There, we talked about the past, how we got here, why we went here, and everything back then.

So now I know the real reason why we moved here to Manila from Cotabato.

I was born in Cotabato City but I am in Manila for like 11 years already. Almost half my life so basically, I grew up in Manila. Quezon City, specifically. I was 6 when we moved here. Before, I thought the reason why we moved here is bcos of my brothers who then has a band. They had an album and their song became a hit. So the recording company, which is Polycosmic Records then but Universal Records now, said they should come to Manila already. So we did. And they did TV guestings and all that. I was with them all the way. It was such a challenge moving here cos when we moved, we had no house at all! And our furnitures and all are still in the ship. LOL. That was around April 1999, a month after I graduated kindergarten.

Back in Cotabato, business was really good. Meron kaming video games store(all over Cotabato), movie rentals(back when vhs tapes and laser discs were very popular haha) store and an all-in-one bar, restaurant, club, videoke named after my name. LOL. Business was really doing well. Kami yung unang may ganun dun. Hindi pa tapos yung construction, pina-open na. Lots of artists went there like Manilyn Reynes, UMD Dancers, Streetboys, Yano, etc etc etc. I can’t remember though cos I was still young. Nung in-open yun, sobrang dami raw ng tao. Naubusan pa ng food and beer. LOL. Tapos may mga G.R.O. pa daw, hahahaha! And they held contests there like dance contests, costume contest every Halloween and all that. Pinauso din dun yung Ladies Night which is every Wednesday, Ballroom night, and etcetera. Yung restaurant, sobrang okay yung food. I remember nakaakyat pa ako sa kitchen. Yung videoke, may 5 private videoke rooms and a big videoke room outside it. The 5 videoke rooms were all named after our Zodiac Signs: Aquarius, Capricorn, Gemini, Taurus, and Libra. Lahat yun nasa isang building. It’s a big lot cos from what I remember, it’s only one floor. Tumugtog din dun mga kuya ko. Then dad told us na nabilib yung manager ng isang band na nakasabay nila kuya and sinabi niya, “Grabe, malayo mararating nito.” Tapos masayang-masaya sila after kasi may sweldo sila, 50 pesos! Pero mind you, malaki na yun nung time na yun.

Though business was really good, my parents had been receiving death threats even before the bar was opened. Three all in all. Two before the bar was opened, and another one when it was already opened.. I guess. Basta tatlo. They didn’t mind it. Hindi sila nagbigay ng kung anong money kahit na pinagbantaan na ng kidnap and all those shits. 50k ang hinihingi nun. To think, malaki na yung ganung amount dati dba? The military said na wag magbigay. Yeah, we had military escorts. I was like, whoa! “Parang secret service, haha.”. They showed the first two letter threats to the military and so ayun. Kinekwento ng mom ko na looking back, parang nakakahiya daw na may sumusunod sa’yo na military kahit san magpunta. Kahit mag-grocery lang or what. Hindi ko matandaan yun, seriously. Of course, bata pa ako.

Dun pa nabaril yung asawa nung auntie ko, kapatid ng mom ko. He was just outside then a drive-by happened. I still remember that! I was in the hallway, just near outside, talking to my brother and mom. Then we heard the gun shots. Then bam! Ayun. Grabe yun. Dun na kami natulog. Sa videoke lounge. To think that all of us were there! My cousins, my brothers, everyone. Grabe yun.

I don’t know when the third death threat came, before or after the incident, but it involves us, the children. Sabi dun, alam kung saan kami nag-aaral and all that. E natakot na si mommy, so sinabi niya kay dad na umalis na kami dun. E sakto, okay ang band nila kuya, may album tapos sakto pinapapunta sila dito sa Manila. So ayun, we’ve been here ever since. Hindi kami bumalik dun for like I don’t know how many years. Mga year 2005 yata nung bumalik kami.

But even though, those were the good times. Mga Christmas Party ng clan nun, hindi ko naabutan talaga. Tapos yung bawat branch ng movie rental and video games shop namin may presentation. That was fun. I can still remember that. Sumayaw kami nun e. Kaming magpipinsan, younger ones. I was like 3 or 4 that time. Haha!

But hands down to my parents that they were able to handle all that. Nung lumipat kami dito, dala-dala nila aside from us, their children, are my four cousins(included din sa band) and my uncle, my mom’s youngest brother. Alala ko nagpupunta kami ng ABS-CBN nun at kung saan-saan. Mall tours, bars and all. Those days when bars were really really popular. So bata pa lang ako, mahilig na ako magpuyat. Haha. Naalala ko dun sila sa Art’s Venue sa Taft tumutugtog dati. Karamihan ng big bands that time, andun. And they were the youngest of all. Sobrang hanga ako sa mga kuya ko e. They have the talent. They have the gadgets every band would want to have. And with just one incident and should I say, person, BAM! Nasira lahat. Banda, pati na rin pagsasamahan ng fam, ALMOST. At least hindi totally. But we can’t do anything about that anymore. Those were the past. It was just fun reliving all those. And I bet we learned a lot from that, all of us.

Thank God, walang nangyaring kahit ano sa ‘min.
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BTW. Do you know about the Biggest Online Dance Battle in YouTube? Holymoleeyyy, ACDC(Adam/Chu Dance Crew) PWNED Miley&Mandy BIGTIME. WTFWTF ACDC’s awesomeee! They got JABBAWOCKEEZZZ!!! And Brianna Evigan, Rob Hoffman, LL, Amanda Bynes, Britanny Snow, Chris Scott, Chris Brown babyyyy! WTH. Though M&M got Channing Tatum, Crumbs, and other good dancers, FO SHOOO M&M GOT PWNED! ) If you don’t know what this is, watch this. BUT FIRST, watch the video that started it all. And the video response which got 3 million views. WATCH. THE BIGGEST ONLINE DANCE BATTLE IN YOUTUBE HISTORY. They’ll rock your socks man! Haha. Can’t wait what M&M Cru will come up with.

A blessed day.

Last April 23, we celebrated my Dad’s birthday in our new house. Along with that is the House Blessing. So at around 10-11am, the priest arrived and after the house blessing, he ate with us. Mahaba-haba nga ang sermon niya. Haha. But it was really really nice. It was nice to bond with my family like that. The priest also told us about the Philippines, why our country is like this, etc etc, and how there is still hope for our country to rise up. Everything that’s happening in our country now are just challenges. It’s up to us how we’re going to conquer all those challenges. The government is the one that leads, guides and controls our country, but it is really us, the people, who will make our country a better place. And how are we going to do that? Go back to where everything started, family. The family is the first school, first church, first everything. That’s why family matters a lot. I have learned a lot from just one day, one day. And I love it.

Later on in the afternoon, our pastor friend from Cornerstone Christian Church dropped by to give the cake to my dad and he prayed us over. It was really touching. My dad cried. So as my brother, Kuya Carlos. I was nearly in tears, and so as my mom. I never felt God more than that day. I felt really blessed. Who could ever thought that that day would be that blessed? First birthday on our new home, I can feel God’s presence more than ever. Pastor Fred said that “your greatest wealth is the relationship with your family.” True enough. I cannot ever forget that line. He also said that no matter how many challenges had come into our lives and how many things there were that’s lost and left behind, God will give us even more than what we lost. Proverbs 24:16 says, “a righteous man falls seven times, and rises again”/”No matter how often honest people fall, they always get up again; but disaster destroys the wicked.” I know how much things aren’t the same as they were before and how many mistakes have been made in the past, but we’re almost getting to the way it has been before, only that we’re coming up as better people for the betterment of everyone, especially our family. Family is priceless.

That day, I was being sad because of something or rather someone. But after everything that has happened during that day, I had no reason to be sad at all. Because I am very blessed. I am very grateful and thankful that I am with my family. And they’re there for me, we will always have each other. And that friend I was being sad about, will also have my back, no matter what.

Well, some of the people who reads my blog knows who that person is.

You know this past few days, I’ve been… I don’t, I can’t explain how I’m feeling really. I just know that I miss someone. Period. And it’s just that no matter how much you do things, how much you occupy yourself doing a LOT of things, in the end, the pain just comes back again. The feeling and the thinking is still there. And it really sucks. Sometimes I wish I could just sleep forever. Well no, not really, but it’s in sleep that I’m peaceful and have nothing to think about. Maybe this will pass, just maybe. Maybe because it’s summer and school’s not on the way and yeah. Sigh. Why am I feeling pain? Why am I being sad? Well it’s just because reality keeps slapping me in my face. Yes yes, it does. But what can I do? It’s reality, I need to deal with it.

See, last night I turned off the PC earlier than what I used to, but I can’t sleep and I don’t want to yet. So I went to my brother’s room. Nakipagkulitan. Kumain. Nag-exercise. Palakad-lakad, pabalik-balik. Then my brother asked me, “Cha? Musta?” and how the usual me would say, “Okay lang.” Then tries to look okay. I just wanted to take that feeling away, and I can’t explain WHAT feeling that is. I played the guitar, asked my brother what song is easy to play, he told me the chords of Always Be My Baby and there, I played it. Turned on my pc again, played it over and over. Searched for the chords of Realize by Colbie Callait, Say it again by Marie Digby and all that. My fingers hurt. But it was fine. As long as I don’t feel that feeling. But after everything, it’s just didn’t work. It’s still there. So I went to sleep at 4am. Again.

I just hate how I’m always like that. Whenever I feel something that would make me ultimately happy, I always hold it back. I always hold it back. And what does it get me? It pains me. I’m always scared to get hurt. I’m always scared to be happy. Cos every time I’m happy, I always think that there will be something that will make me sad. Gah, I don’t know. I just.. blah.

Anyway, on the lighter side(lolz), I kept thinking about this conversation I had with my brother’s ex. She asked me what will I do after I graduate, then I said, “job?” She said, “further studies?” Yes, I want to. But you know how life is hard nowadays. I want to go study in another art school outside the country to get a second degree or masters or whatever you call that. I just love education. I love to learn. But she said, that she thinks I can do it. And she will continue to believe in me. She’s going to the U.S. later this year to I think, study again. She’s in Singapore right now, studying as an Economics major. How cool is that? She said she’ll help me get financial support when I really want to and I’m serious about it. And last night, I searched for the top art schools in the U.S. and I looked into The Art Institute of California and the Academy of Art University. Those are both in California, Los Angeles and California respectively. But after much surfing in both websites, I decided that I want to go to the Academy of Art University! LOLZ. But what the hell, can I ever do that? I was so overwhelmed last night when I saw all that. I don’t know though. It’s not a crime to dream, is it? Dream on, Cha. Dream on.

Anyway, that’s about it. Thanks for everyone who commented on my layout and previous blog post! Much loves.

An-April-19-blog-post

IT’S OFFICIALLY VACATION TIME FOR ME!

Been a long long time since I went online. For almost like a month I think? So I have here a little run through of what’s happened in my life for the past month:

1. We moved in to our new house in Fairview. It may be far from my school, but heck, who cares? I’m gonna make sure my sacrifices will be all worth it. Glad I’m not moving in to a new school!

2. Since we moved in to our new house, we have had delicious foods! ) As in, seriously! I have noticed that even before but my dad said it just yesterday. Thank God for the blessings!

3. Since we moved in to our new house, our internet’s bummed so I wasn’t able to go online. SMARTBRO sucks. SMARTBROken. Lol. When our account expires, we’ll surely gonna change our connection. We should.

4. Frosh year is over! Oh yes! I’m not a frosh anymore but a sophomore! Can you believe that? Cliche as it may sound but time flies by really fast. It’s so overwhelming. So many things to do, so little time. But it would help me be responsible in managing with my time, right?

5. I passed all my subjects this term! THANK GOD! I THANK GOD SO MUCH 100x!!! You know, I was worried a hell lot about my grades in two subjects. Business Math was okay until our prof told us our standings before our final exams. I had to get half of my final exam to pass! Our Final exam only had 2 questions, all worth #(forgot) points.

And my World Literature class, well I was so worried about this. In her[my prof] class, I don’t really participate. I wasn’t active. And to top off, I was always late. I knew I had a low midterm grade that I didn’t know. So I really studied for her final exam. It was the last resort I had to prove to her that I deserve a passing grade, at least. I knew I didn’t give my best this term, especially in her class. I had to prove to her that I am so much better than what she thinks. Because I know I am. I just didn’t exert much effort to make her see that, and as well as in my other subjects. I knew I wasn’t in my best form. I guess I had to be in the danger zone first to make me realize how I was and how I did. I should have done my part at the start of the term, but I didn’t. I ultimately learned the hard way.

And because of that, I ultimately promised myself that I will do much much better next time. Better than what I had been, better than what I am. I hope I will be able to do that, and not just eat my words at the end of the term, again asking God for another chance to make things right. No, I hope not. God might not give me another chance to do so because I knew I had the chance already and didn’t use it well.

6. GRADES GRADES GRADES.
COMSK2x – 3.0 Our Project Plan proposal presentation went really well and I worked hard on my video resume.
PETWODA – 3.0 Heck, why the hell my grade is 3.0? It’s the only P.E. class yet that I wasn’t able to get a 4.0! To think it was Dance! WTF? I wasn’t able to get it myself so I wasn’t able to question her about it. Anyway, it’s fine. Well, no it isn’t. I believe I deserve more than a 3.0, maybe a 3.5 will do. But I don’t know.
PHILOMA – 2.5 Well I guess I deserve this grade. Hooray for one PHILOMA prof for the cheats! I guess everyone knew the answers for the matching type and true or false(alternate answers).
RECONSE – 3.5 WHOA! I was surprised to know that I got 3.5 for this subject. Not that I don’t deserve it, I just didn’t expect to get this grade. I got 3.0 for the midterms and I managed to get this. How cool was that? )
FILIP13 – 2.5 It’s kinda okay. I got a 3.0 for the midterms and I guess I deserve this one. Maybe I didn’t get a high score in my final exams.
BMAT2x- 2.0! That would be equal to 80-84. Would you believe mehnnn?! I was just praying for a 1.0! A passing grade! But I got a 2.0 instead! How ultimately cool was that man? )
WORLITE- 1.5 Okay, I am happy that I got this grade at least! I got a missed call from my prof and that meant that I need to pass a poster-like work to pull up my grade. I will make an artwork about one story we discussed and how I understood it in class. A catchy by-line is required too, just like what we did in our poster activity in class. I had it printed on A4 and had it laminated. My friends were miss called too. We were really scared. I rushed the poster I did ’cause my prof called at around 12:30-1:00-ish in the morning and I was already asleep then. I woke up at 10:30am! And my phone was bombarded with my friends’ text messages. I called them and they were already at school. So I made the poster for like 2 hours and arrived at school at around 3pm. So yeah, we waited for like an hour because our prof wasn’t there yet. I thought I’m going to be there for only 30 minutes but add an hour on that, so my brothers waited for me at McDo for about 1 and a half hour. Oopsie. ) My prof told me that I passed the final exam and told me that maybe I studied for the exam ) Well I did, really. So yeah. Here’s my work btw.

Again, it’s a vector. The first vector is recycled. The second and third one, well, I got their pictures from my brother’s wedding. LOL. I’ve been addicted to doing vectors lately. I did it for only two hours ’cause I was rushing so it’s not so good.

7. My dad’s birthday is coming up! It’s on Wednesday. It turns out that Ate Lhyn[my cousin's wife] and Ate Gem’s[family friend] daughter is also celebrating their birthday on the same day! So we’re gonna celebrate it here in our new home! That would be really fun! First birthday on our new house. The house blessing will be on that day too. I’m gonna post a lot of pictures if I can take a lot.

8. NEW LAYOUT! How do you like it?

So that’s it.

I missed a lot in the web world and as well as in the blogosphere. I missed reading your blogs! I’m surely going to keep up with everything. Ohyay.

Hiatus mehn.

I haven’t been able to blog and drop by your blogs for 10 days ’cause…

1. We’re moving to our new house tomorrow and it has been a very busy week.
2. Finals are coming up, with all the deadlines and all.
3. Since we’re moving, we don’t have an internet connection, which sucks btw ’cause I have a lot to do which involves a lot of internet stuff.

So now I’m here in our school’s Computer Lab.

I’m declaring a HIATUS, though.

Maybe when Finals are over or what, I don’t know. I miss the internet and blogging though. It’s just it’s a very busy month.

Have a wonderful summer guys!
It’s a hot hot summer -_-

Not-so-holy-week.

Last night was the most FUNNEST night I ever had since I don’t know when! SRSLY! It was an unexpected get-together, or night out as you may call it.

But anyway, I’m going to start off with my day. First, Mom, Dad and I went to Fairview to check when we can already move some things in the house. Probably, by Monday we can start moving things already since maybe by that time, some parts of the house are already fixed. They said we should already be there on the 31st. I am soo excited! Yep, I am excited now. Haha. Man, it’s a lot of work! I saw my room too! It’s bigger than my room now. Hooray! I can’t wait to decorate and design it, lol. I hope they would allow me to paint it with the color I want to. The only thing I can say about the house is, WOW. I can now imagine the Christmas Party we could have there. We can run around for the relay game. ) Sobrang init din kahapon, grabe. Mabaliw na yata ako dun. Lakad lang ako ng lakad, paikot-ikot. Hinintay pa kasi namin si kuya Raymond kasama si Ate Therese. When they came, we toured them around the house. Then after, we went to San Benissa to check out Ate Therese’s condo unit. We just saw the model unit since the way to her building is still under construction. Ang ganda sobra sa San Benissa! Spanish-inspired nga. I felt like I was in Spain! SRSLYYYY! It was a cute community. Haha, cute. ) Parang American way of living. Bumili pa kami ng inumin since sobrang uhaw na kami at napakain pa tuloy ng La Paz Batchoy. Haha. We left around 6-ish.

Tapos, napag-alaman kong pupunta pala sila Kuya sa SM para manood ng sine. Ayun, napasama tuloy ako. We watched Meet the Spartans. Laugh trip. Pero di ko masyado nagustuhan na as in super. Di namin naabutan yung first 20 minutes kasi kumain pa kami sa Pizza Hut. But it wasn’t the real reason though. Ate Therese and I went to the comfort room which was on the 3rd floor. After, we saw this big black circle and we got curious what’s it for. It was asking which is faster to go down, 25-cents, 1-peso or 5-peso. LOL. Promise, sinasayang lang nila ang pera niyo. ) 5-peso was fastest. LOL. Parang sira lang. Law of gravity chuva daw, ngek. ) Because of that, we were late. ) So then, we left SM at 10-ish.

Kuya Jeff invited Ate Therese and Kuya to go to their gig at Mugen, Metrowalk even before we got at SM. I think we weren’t supposed to go at Mugen though, but my brother got pissed about something that I don’t know what. So we went. I was like, WHAT?! ) I was wearing a shirt, capri pants and slippers. It was really unexpected. I said, if I would have known that they were going there, I wouldn’t come. But after everything, I take that back. I KNEW I SHOULD BE THERE. ) I would definitely miss the half of my 2008 if I didn’t go!

Sobrang sobrang fun talaga! Lahat kami parang 1st time ulit to go in a bar(with bands ah) after we don’t know when. Ako siguro nung… basta di ko na matandaan, alam ko simula nung wala na sila kuya. I was surprised that Kuya Carlos was there with them too. Haha. So lahat kaming magkakapatid nandun(except for Kuya Ian of course, ’cause he’s in Davao). Wudyubeliv. Along with, Ate Gem, Ate Lhyn, Kuya Sonny and Kuya Ces. So there were 8 of us.

Sa bands kasi, usually 3rd set sila nagpapa-jam. Laging sinasabi ni Kuya Jeff na may magj-jam from Pure Instinct simula pa nung 1st at 2nd set nila. Syempre, na-excite naman kaming lahat kasi sobrang na-miss namin silang mag-perform! Sinasabi ko lagi kay Ate Therese during that time, “Nakakamiss yung ganito.” Kasi laging sila(Pure Instinct) ang pinapanood namin ‘pag lumalabas. Ngayon, sila na ang kasama namin pag nanonood.. ng ibang banda.

Third set came and the jamming started. OHYE. Nung tinawag na si Kuya Amon to play the guitar, and another guy, a Korean, to play the bass, we were all like screaming our lungs out! SOBRA. Lalo naman nung nag-perform na si Kuya. TALAGA NAMAN MEHN. Hataw! They played Play that Funky Music. OMG GRABE TALAGA. FANS CLUB KAMI! ) After, sigawan talaga! Si Ate Therese ang haba ng hair. Hahaha. Sabi naman ni Kuya Amon, napansin daw niya nung adlib na, bumagal daw siya. Taeng bumagal yan, ayos nga yung pag-perform niya dun. Bumagal pa ang kamay niya sa lagay na yun. Sayang hindi niya ginawa yung exhibition na ginagawa nila ni kuya Ian, yung ilalagay sa likod yung gitara. IDOL TALAGA! It would have been better though if both of them were there, but of course it’s not possible.

Akala namin yun na, tapos na, na si kuya Amon lang ang magj-jam. Pero syempre I was hoping na magj-jam pa si Kuya Sonny at Kuya Carlos. When the band said na one more jammer to go, sumigaw si ate Therese, “SONNY! CARLOS!”. Sabi ni Kuya Jeff, “Oo, two more pa pala.” Sigawan kameeee. ) Hahaha. Tapos nung tinawag na sila, we were telling them, “Go na! Goooo!” E si Kuya Sonny medyo wala na sa katinuan, haha. Hindi naman, kaya naman, sabog lang siya. )

Pag-akyat nila ng stage, kwento nila kuya, di daw nila alam anong song yung ip-perform nila, tapos nagulat na lang sila na Bring Me to Life yun. Haha. Edi go. SOBRANG sigaw kami ng sigaw dun! Ang ingay namin! Kami yung pinaka-maingay. Haha. Tapos si Ate Therese sumisigaw, “Magbalikan na kayo! Wala na akong gimik!” ) Totoo naman e, simula nung wala na sila, hindi na talaga nakakalabas. Sobrang tuwang-tuwa at masayang-masaya ako after. Nag-hug pa nga sila pagtapos e. Aw. Sayang hindi kumpleto. Pero okay lang, sobrang masaya naman kasi after how many months, nakita namin sila ulit mag-perform! Si Kuya Jeff nga, hindi siya kasama sa song, nakaupo lang sa tabi, di niya napigilang mapatayo at pumunta rin ng stage e. At some point, I knew they will miss what they were doing for almost 12 years of their lives. And we, also missed them. Sayang kasi talaga. They’re still young and they’re great at what they do. And with just that, everything fell apart. It was really really sad. I had a hard time accepting that ’cause all my life(srsly!), I’ve been used to seeing them perform a lot. They were my idols. I seriously don’t know how they do it, they’re really really good. And I’m not telling this because they’re my brothers/cousins. It’s because they really are good. Sobrang proud ako tuwing nakikita ko silang mag-perform. Sabi nga ni Kuya Sonny nun, “Nasa dugo natin yan ‘tol”. Every Wednesday tumutugtog sila Kuya Jeff dun. Btw, Kuya Jeff is my brother’s ex-bandmate and Kuya Amon’s high school friend, bestfriend. Sabi nila, dapat daw every Wednesday ganun. Then kami yung Wednesday group. ) Haha.

I can’t wait to see them perform again. I plan to make them perform on my debut next year, if ever possible. I would ultimately love that. And at last, kagabi rin! NAKITA KO NA RIN SUMAYAW SI KUYA CARLOS! ) WAHAHAHA. ) After the jamming kasi, the band played dance songs. Una, nakaupo pa si kuya dun, then I don’t remember sinong humila sa kanya para tumayo, then ayun, napasayaw na rin. OHYE. ) Hahaha. Ang saya, lahat kami sumasayaw nun. Since walang dance floor, dun sa may table. Haha. Nakahilera kami dun na para bang kami lang yung tao. We went home at around 3 to 4-ish. Sumabay ako kila Kuya Ces since andun si Kuya Carlos, they dropped us off at Quezon Ave. since his car was there, wala kasi siyang kasama mag-drive pauwi so ako na lang. Nag-drive thru pa kami sa jollibee. When we got home, mom and dad was awake. ) Tapos ayun, nagkwentuhan kami sa kwarto nila while eating. I love those moments, it’s priceless. These moments are priceless.

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Btw, thanks for all your comments guys. 3 and a half years lang dun, tri-sem kasi. Mag-2nd year na siya e, konti na lang graduate na.” And I was telling my mom when we were in the house, “Napalayo naman ako.” She said, “Okay lang, kelangan lang maaga gumising.” So yeah. YEEE.

I don’t know what to do.

At last, they told me.

Lilipat kami ng bahay. Mas malayo, sa Fairview na. Malaki raw. Ang mga kwarto namin malaki, lahat may banyo. May terrace, may mapagpapractice-an ng sayaw, at lahat lahat na. Nung nakita raw ng kuya ko, isa lang raw nasabi niya, mansion.

Dun pala sila pumunta kanina, habang ako naghihintay sa Convergy’s para sunduin nila. Galing ako ng TriNoma kanina then my friend dropped me off there. Sabi tumambay muna ako ng Starbucks, pero dahil naisipan kong wag na lang dahil mapapagastos nanaman ako, sa Ministop na lang. Matagal e, kaya naglakad na lang ako pauwi. Tutal kaya ko naman. Akala ko nandun si kuya, pero nalaman kong magkakasama pala silang lahat.

Grabe. Grabe talaga.

Nagsimba kami dahil Palm Sunday. After, we went to Pancake House sa Convergys. There, they told me. At last.

Hindi ko alam bakit hindi nila agad sinabi sa akin. Hindi ko malalaman kung hindi dahil sa kuya ko. Sinabi lang niya na ‘wag ko ipaalam kila Mom na sinabi niya sa ‘kin. Bakit ayaw nilang ipaalam sa akin? Bakit ayaw nilang malaman ko? Even if malalaman ko rin naman in the long run?

Ganun naman lagi eh. It seems like I don’t have any right to know what’s happening? Am I not part of the family? Because, really, everyone knows but me! And you know how much that sucks? It sucks big time. And my dad was saying that I am innocent? Grabe. He doesn’t know that I know then. I may not know everything that’s happening but I am not stupid to not have any clue on what are they doing. They make me look like I’m stupid. I just wanted them to tell me. Everytime I’m there, they’re not talking about it. If I’m not there, they talk a lot. It’s painful. It feels like they don’t want me to grow up. And maybe they thought I would not understand. I will be so disappointed if that will be their reason. I am so disappointed that they think of me that way. Maybe they don’t really know me. Grabe.

Now, that’s fine with me because they already told me. Even if it took so much time before they told me. Okay the house is big. I’ve always dreamt of a house big enough for me. I should be happy and be jumping up and down now. But I’m not.

Lilipat rin daw ako ng school. Sobrang nagulat ako dun. Hindi ko alam kung nagbibiro sila o hindi. Hindi ko alam kung sobrang tuloy o hindi. Pero that trigerred me to just blow up and cry right then and there at Pancake House. But I held it back, I don’t want them to see me cry and I don’t want people to see me cry really hard there. Hindi na lang ako nagsalita. Gusto nila akong lumipat either UP or Ateneo(my bro said this). Mas okay di ba? Pero hindi eh. Tinanong ako ng dad ko kung matataas daw ba ang grades ko. Tapos mag-inquire din daw kami sa UP about transferring. And other stuff like that. Natulala na lang ako. Wala akong masabi. Maiyak-iyak na ako. Alam kong mas okay, pero… hindi talaga e. Walang MMA dun. Gusto ko sa MMA. I don’t want to leave my CSB friends. CSB has been my turf. It’s where I am happy and comfortable with. My friends are superb and I am very lucky to have them in my life. Akala ko okay na lahat when I told them na dun ko gusto mag-aral. Akala ko wala nang mangyayaring ganito. But really, life plays with you when you least expect it.

You know, I never imagined myself to be in CSB and taking up MMA then because it’s far from where I live. But now that I’m there, I don’t want to leave anymore. It’s where I now imagined myself to be in for the next 2 or 3 years. Nung nalaman ko yun, parang lahat ng yun, biglang naglaho. It all shattered into pieces. My dreams, my heart, everything. Every little thing I imagined, every dream I had, every bit of myself was just shattered.

Kung alam ko lang na mangyayari ‘to, edi sana hindi na ako nag-aral dun dba? Edi sana hindi ko na lang pinaglaban ‘to. Sayang naman yung tatlong terms ko. Kung ayaw nila kung nasaan ako, kung ayaw nilang umalis at lumabas ako, kung nahihirapan sila, sabihin nila. Dahil ayoko ring nahihirapan sila dahil sa ‘kin. Kaya ko naman e.

Lahat may paraan.

Sabi ko na nga ba dapat kumuha na lang ako ng scholarship noon. Kung dahil sa tuition, dahil alam kong napakamahal talaga at tri-sem pa, may paraan naman para diyan e. Scholarship. Naging open naman ako sa kanila about dyan, sabi nila okay lang. Okay lang na hindi kumuha, okay lang kung kumuha. Kung dahil sa layo, may paraan pa rin, commute! Hindi nila kelangang araw-araw akong ihatid at sunduin sa school. Kasi kakayanin ko namang mag-commute e. They just won’t let me kaya iniisip ko rin na hindi ko kaya. I was willing to commute. I was willing to do everything just to be in CSB. Tapos ngayon, ganito? Sana hindi ko na lang talaga pinaglaban. Kasi in the first place, I knew na gusto talaga nila na sa UP ako mag-aral. Pero sorry hindi ako nakapasa. Akala ko kakayanin kong iwan ang CSB para sa UP. Pero hindi e.

Dapat maging masaya ako na malaki na ang lilipatan naming bahay. Pero hindi ako masaya. Aanhin ko ang malaking bahay kung hindi naman ako masaya? Mas mahalaga sa akin kung saan ako masaya. Mas mahalaga sa akin ang pangarap ko. Walang ibang nago-offer ng MMA kundi CSB lang. May APC rin naman pero malayo rin yun. Ganun din. Alam kong maraming alternatives, maraming pwedeng gawin. Pero hindi eh, hindi talaga. Kasi MMA ang gusto ko. Fit na fit sa ‘kin yun e. Lahat ng gusto kong gawin nandun. Pwede akong mag-Information Design sa Ateneo, e ano, mas mahal naman ang tuition! Pwede akong mag-CommArts sa UP, pero ayoko ng CommArts. Hindi niyo siguro ako maiintindihan kasi wala kayo sa pwesto ko pero eto nararamdaman ko e.

Hindi ko alam anong gagawin ko. Kasi hindi ko maiwasang isipin na magiging selfish ang dating ko pag ganito, pag sarili ko lang ang iisipin ko. Alam kong nahihirapan sila, pero nahihirapan din ako. Mga kapatid ko ayos lang sa kanila e. Bakit? Kasi graduate na silang lahat! Yung kuya ko, ggraduate na ngayong March. Ako na lang natitira. At lahat naman sila nagwwork sa business namin. Kasi dun nila gusto. Pero may iba akong gusto e, may iba akong pangarap. May iba akong gustong gawin. Hindi ako magaling kumanta o tumugtog ng instrumento, pero mahilig ako sa musika. Hindi ako magaling sa sounds at lighting, pero marunong akong mag-appreciate. Hindi ako katulad nila. I didn’t turn out to what they expect and what they want me to be. Because I have my own mind, own dreams, own thinking. Shouldn’t they be proud that I know what I want and what I want to be? Shouldn’t they be proud that I am capable of deciding for myself?

Sayang e, nandito na ako, aalis pa ako.

So tell me, am I being selfish? If I tell them this, am I being selfish?

A lot of questions are running through my mind. Gusto kong malaman ang mga sagot. Hindi ko alam anong gagawin ko ngayon. Nalulungkot ako. Naguguluhan ako.

Anong dahilan? Bakit nangyayari ‘to ngayon? Bakit nangyayari ‘to? (

Can I chill for a minute?

March 14, last year high school pa lang ako. Finals namin. Ayon sa aking 2007 planner.

March 15, birthday na pala ni Val ngayon, HAPPY BIRTHDAY VAL! Finals pa rin namin.

Fast forward to today..
College ako. Hindi pa namin finals, hindi pa rin magtatapos ang school para sa ‘min. Madaming gagawin. Seryoso, sobrang busy these past few days. Actually weeks ago pa sobrang dami nang gagawin. Ngayon ko lang na-realize. Tipong ayoko nang humarap sa computer kasi hindi ko na magagawa yung mga iba kong gustong gawin, like movie marathons, TV watching, kulitan with my family, and stuff like that. Kapag nasa harapan kasi ako ng PC, nagiging anti-social ako. Pag may ginagawa ako dito, super focused talaga. Kaya nasisira mata ko e. Haha. At hindi na ako makatayo sa kinauupuan ko. Swear, ganun. Pero hindi pwedeng hindi akong humarap sa PC. Dahil MMA ang kurso ko at forever computer-related ito. Kelangan ko ring i-check araw-araw ang mail ko, ang online shop namin, ang multiply ko(dahil napag-iiwanan na ako, marami pa rin akong hindi nauupload), ang friendster ko(dahil ayoko naman na late reply sa comments), at ang blog ko.

Buti Friday ngayon, nakanood ako ng TV. Napanood ko ang ending ng Marimar. Grabe yun oh, pinagkagastusan talaga. Ang pretty talaga ni Marian Rivera. Haha. Anywayyyy, nagpunta ako dito sa PC para i-edit yung remaining pics nung batchmate ko dati na debut sa 28th. Para wala nang dagdag pproblemahin. Ma-stress pa ako e. LOLz. Pero hindi ko pa rin siya ginagawa. Uh-oh. Dapat kasi natutulog na rin ako ngayon. Kasi maaga pa ako bukas dahil may practice kami for our P.E. Dance on Monday na Tango. And magppractice na rin kami for our Finals which is HIPHOP! Ohyea! I so missed dancing this kaya sobrang natuwa ako nung nalaman kong yan ang finals namin! Hehe. Tapos after the practice, we’re gonna continue the shoot for Jamila’s debut. This time, video naman. For the last few weeks kasi, puro photoshoots. So video na gagawin namin ngayon. Then yung classmate namin nung high school said na baka may celebration yung kaklase namin ng birthday niya. Di pa namin alam kung meron.

Then on Sunday, my barkada and I will have another bonding moment at TriNoma. We’re gonna watch Step up 2, lunch then ayun. We planned on having this every month just to keep in touch. But I said hanggang 4pm lang siguro kasi Palm Sunday at syempre magsisimba kami dba.

Aside from that, meron pang PHILOMA(Philosophy of Man) project na is-shoot, FILIP13(Retorika) song adaption(lol, we chose With You by Chris Brown, my blockmate already made the lyrics), Business Math quizzes to worry about, World Literature classes(pinoproblema namin ang mga stories at poems, oo. haha), COMSK2x(Technical Literature) multimedia resume and project proposal, and uh.. yeah. I think that’s pretty much it. It’s a lot, I tell you. Plus the Course Approval thingy pa pala! Di pa approved yung enlisted subjects ko kahit na napasa ko na yung requirements sa academic adviser ko. Oh well. Tapos ano pa ba.. basta, yan. Hectic. So, sorry if hindi ako nakakadalaw sa mga blogs niyo. Malapit na rin ang end ng classes(yeah like April 19) so busy talaga. Pero I’m not stressing YET. I hope I won’t! Oh well.

I guess all of us are busy. Some update lang. Naaliw ako sa journal na ginawa namin for Filipino for almost a week, everyday! Ayos din pala ang may entry araw-araw. Pero siguro for myself lang? Haha. Wala lang, baka ma-trip-an ko sometime. Good thing there’s the Holy Week break! almost 4 days of break. Pero marami pa rin akong gagawin kahit break. Like go to church, celebrate the Holy week and academic stuff. Yeah.

good luck sa ‘ting lahat. random stuff lang. thanks for those who dropped by!

Being tagged means blog post.

Why oh why am I posting this? Well because I have been tagged by three people. Actually, by four people but it has the same survey as the other so.. well anyway. LOLz. I guess it’s enough reason for me to well “update” my blog. Haha.

TAG # 1: from Frances and Mhaye.

This is the easy way and the fastest way to :

1. Make your Technorati authority explode.
2. Increase your Google Page Rank.
3. Get more traffic to your blog.
4. Makes more new friends.

Rules :

1. Start copy from “Begin Copy” until “End Copy” to your blog.
2. Put your own blog name and link.
3. Tag your friends as much as you can.

1. Picturing of Life
2. La Place de Cherie
3. Chez Francine
4. Le bric a brac de Cherie
5. Jenn
6. Princess-I
7. Princess-II
8.life-abroad
9.Darling
10.bestfriend’s
11.pinayLoveStories
12.USA-wifey
13.Allen’s sweetheart
14. Nicotine’s world of Fun
15. I’ve Been Sleeping With the Clouds Above My Head.
16. Bitterstars and butterhearts

I tag: Kim, Renz, Athina and Apple.

TAG #2: from Precious.

You reached 331 points, so you achieved position 83242 of 912714 on the ranking list. [Oh yea. Haha.]

76 words

Speedtest

Bragging aside, I really am a fast typer. Even if my keyboard’s letters can rarely be seen, I still know what letter it is. Lol.

I want to try it again. 2nd round.

You reached 349 points, so you achieved position 59276 of 912795 on the ranking list.

84 words

Speedtest

At least, it’s higher. LOL. I had one wrong word on both tests. Grr. Anyway, it’s okay. Hehe.

I tag: Renz, Kim, and Frances.

Tag # 3: from Kim.

*i still don’t know how i’m going to get the tag from Kim. Hahaha. Tinatamad ako i-type lahat. Lol. Anyway, sa sunod na lang. *